I am a 25 year old male, soon to be 26 years old. I have lived with severe depression, anxiety etc for my entire life. I do not remember being "normal" but I do know that around the age of 10 I began to develop my persona that I live with to this day.
I wish I could be happy. I wish I could participate in daily life like a normal person. I try my best.
I have never had a relationship, never had a girlfriend etc. I have not had a "friend" since high school. My life consists of going to work, coming home and repeating the process. My job deals with the public. It is menial work in a hospital. I am a janitor.
Social anxiety has effected me so much that I was / am afraid to pursue more education.
My biggest regret is not being able to date. I just... can't. I do not have any social skills. Sometimes I do try, but I never really get anywhere. Women generally ignore me no matter how I act. I am not the best looking person, but I am not ugly either.
Where I work it is probably 90 percent women, yet nobody can even remember my name. I guess I am just invisible.
I don't know why I am here, I guess to vent.
I wish I could be happy. I wish I could participate in daily life like a normal person. I try my best.
I have never had a relationship, never had a girlfriend etc. I have not had a "friend" since high school. My life consists of going to work, coming home and repeating the process. My job deals with the public. It is menial work in a hospital. I am a janitor.
Social anxiety has effected me so much that I was / am afraid to pursue more education.
My biggest regret is not being able to date. I just... can't. I do not have any social skills. Sometimes I do try, but I never really get anywhere. Women generally ignore me no matter how I act. I am not the best looking person, but I am not ugly either.
Where I work it is probably 90 percent women, yet nobody can even remember my name. I guess I am just invisible.
I don't know why I am here, I guess to vent.