Lousy
I'm sick of thinking in social situations that everything I say has to be perfect. I have to ask all the right questions, say all the right things phrased to perfection, etc.
I've just got out of a situation where I was talking to a girl and I feel like a complete idiot because of TWO things. When we were talking about a festival, I didn't ask her whether she was going (I can't stop thinking she must think I'm really selfish/not interested) and later when she mentioned she had had a bad dream, I asked a stupid question (I think I came across weird). When it was over, she was very friendly when she said goodbye so I guess she can't have cared that much, but, for those two reasons, I feel like a total failure. WHY? Why can't these things not bother me. I swear I'll spend the next few days beating myself up about them, too.