I feel bipolar at the moment lol..I can be ok for part of the day,then I'm angry and want to self destruct,confused about all the shiz ive got going round in my head bleh.
I feel different every single day, but it's all bad. Or, at least, the bad envelopes any good there may have been so as to make it meaningless and unremembered.
Right now, very nervous. I have work in a couple of hours - 2nd day of work, last day of training, and then I have to fend for myself. I'm really scared about screwing up and my confidence is pretty low. I have a really upset stomach because of it.
Much better than I was earlier. Job training went 10000x better. I know tomorrow I will have that "I need to vomit or have diarrhea" feeling again before work but as of tonight, I am content.
well today jus seems like any other day.... same shit different day, living with SA. today I was chillin with my gf, went for a run together then walked her home, chillin on her porch then her mother came out side for a smoke, Iv been dating this girl for 2 months and only met her mom once, she invited us in..... thats when I started to get nervous. I didnt talk much loL jus like any other time....... **** SA!
Being hospitalized kicked my perspective in the ass recently. Not to mention how sick it made me to see what the state is capable of doing to people who are having mental problems.