cowboyup
Well-known member
I know I have been doing a lot of whining, grousing, etc., lately - it's just me going through my usual self-punishment - and I am sorry. Things will get better. It's like that pile up effect or the domino effect. You know if one thing goes wrong, it all crumbles. When it rains, it pours. It happens to everyone and I will get over it and out of my mess soon enough. So, my apologies for having to hear me moan and groan a lot lately on the message boards.
and other news:
I was talking to my sister and I am quite worried about her. She is on an anti-depressant at the highest mg. and still feels depressed. I asked if she should try another one, talk with her doctor, etc. But she told me this is the 4th one she has tried. She's like my own child. I helped raised her since toddler. I even named her. If nothing else, I at least try to talk with her once a week via phone or text because I feel it's the least I should do. I don't have any money to help her and her fiance out - they have a myriad of problems as well - and her fiance is wheelchair bound since age 2. He can't walk, is in constant pain, has colostomy bag, and in and out of ER and doctor almost every week. So I worry about her losing him as well. I know she loves him a great deal and I don't want her to lose a loved one so early in her life. Our mother died when she was just a teenager.
Then on the flip side of that coin you have my SIL and brother. I honestly do appreciate all they've done for me, and I love them dearly. But lately SIL has really been bothering me; getting under my skin. I know we ALL deal with these types in one form or another but living with her has really been putting a toll on my anxieties and especially my social withdrawal I've been experiencing.
Here's the thing: She is a school counselor and rumor has it through her school district that they are considering laying off some people come next school year. OK, I understand she is wanting to take measures to secure her future with a job. Very understandable. But sometimes I feel I am so tiny in comparasion to SIL. She is 10 years younger, has masters degree, and now is possibly going to go back to college to get her Marriage and Family counseling certification while I am here struggling to just get through community college.
On "Black Friday" she went shopping - and boy did she ever! She bought clothes, etc. mainly for herself. Nothing for my brother and 2 shirts for her son and 2 shirts for her daughter. It was actually nauseating to see that much money being spent. Then she gets home and does that 'baby voice' talking to my brother where he's confirming what is on her 'wish list' at amazon.com. Oh jeezz....I wish I did not hear it.
So she wants a Kindle HD, DVD series of several shows, something for her computer, a new speaker plug in thingie for her iphone, etc, etc.
Sh already owns an ipad 2, a kindle and countless DVD series that are collecting dust. Seriously. Well, today in the mail she was so happy to see her Kindle HD had arrived - so she has 2 Kindles and an iPad 2. Awesome.
I know they work very hard for their money. and yes, if I had the money, I would own an ipad, I'm not going to lie. But she spends money like there is no tomorrow. And Why 2 Kindles...
Then I hear comments from her like: 'I have such bad luck, can you believe the line at starbucks'
I kid you not, she said that to me the other day (but hey I got a 6.00 coffee I didn't have to pay for lol)
Or when we were on her quest to find her the perfect boots for work. She looked at me and said: "wouldn't you know it, something I really want to get because my other boots traction on the bottom is wearing down, and I can't find any boots I like, just my luck" (yes, she really did say that)
Again, I know this again has turned into a whine-fest but darn, lately these mundane things have been eating away at me.
I just needed to vent ... thanks for 'listening'
and other news:
I was talking to my sister and I am quite worried about her. She is on an anti-depressant at the highest mg. and still feels depressed. I asked if she should try another one, talk with her doctor, etc. But she told me this is the 4th one she has tried. She's like my own child. I helped raised her since toddler. I even named her. If nothing else, I at least try to talk with her once a week via phone or text because I feel it's the least I should do. I don't have any money to help her and her fiance out - they have a myriad of problems as well - and her fiance is wheelchair bound since age 2. He can't walk, is in constant pain, has colostomy bag, and in and out of ER and doctor almost every week. So I worry about her losing him as well. I know she loves him a great deal and I don't want her to lose a loved one so early in her life. Our mother died when she was just a teenager.
Then on the flip side of that coin you have my SIL and brother. I honestly do appreciate all they've done for me, and I love them dearly. But lately SIL has really been bothering me; getting under my skin. I know we ALL deal with these types in one form or another but living with her has really been putting a toll on my anxieties and especially my social withdrawal I've been experiencing.
Here's the thing: She is a school counselor and rumor has it through her school district that they are considering laying off some people come next school year. OK, I understand she is wanting to take measures to secure her future with a job. Very understandable. But sometimes I feel I am so tiny in comparasion to SIL. She is 10 years younger, has masters degree, and now is possibly going to go back to college to get her Marriage and Family counseling certification while I am here struggling to just get through community college.
On "Black Friday" she went shopping - and boy did she ever! She bought clothes, etc. mainly for herself. Nothing for my brother and 2 shirts for her son and 2 shirts for her daughter. It was actually nauseating to see that much money being spent. Then she gets home and does that 'baby voice' talking to my brother where he's confirming what is on her 'wish list' at amazon.com. Oh jeezz....I wish I did not hear it.
So she wants a Kindle HD, DVD series of several shows, something for her computer, a new speaker plug in thingie for her iphone, etc, etc.
Sh already owns an ipad 2, a kindle and countless DVD series that are collecting dust. Seriously. Well, today in the mail she was so happy to see her Kindle HD had arrived - so she has 2 Kindles and an iPad 2. Awesome.
I know they work very hard for their money. and yes, if I had the money, I would own an ipad, I'm not going to lie. But she spends money like there is no tomorrow. And Why 2 Kindles...
Then I hear comments from her like: 'I have such bad luck, can you believe the line at starbucks'
I kid you not, she said that to me the other day (but hey I got a 6.00 coffee I didn't have to pay for lol)
Or when we were on her quest to find her the perfect boots for work. She looked at me and said: "wouldn't you know it, something I really want to get because my other boots traction on the bottom is wearing down, and I can't find any boots I like, just my luck" (yes, she really did say that)
Again, I know this again has turned into a whine-fest but darn, lately these mundane things have been eating away at me.
I just needed to vent ... thanks for 'listening'
