lonely_drummer
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Hey everyone, haven't wrote in here in a while and whenever things seem to be getting hard I always find myself typing www.soci..... So yeah if you don't know me well I recently just came back into society after spending a long time in the wilderness and traveling spending a good 95% of my time alone with my tent, stove and guitar. I came back to the city in September with mixed feelings but with high hopes. I find things have been going well, I keep trying to challenge myself with social interactions. I decided to really challenge myself and recently had a student hire me to be a tutor (I was a physics major in university). First off the student is a female which already made me nervous plus sitting there talking, trying to explain differential equations for an hour seemed pretty daunting. However, this morning I met with her and things went so well and she wants me to tutor her every week. Then after that I was full of energy and went and played hockey, great! Day got even better! Later I come home and a friend of my roomate (a girl I've been getting to know and like) was over hanging out at our place. So everyone goes to bed except for me and her and we just hang out watching movies. Then we ended up falling asleep cuddling on the couch then she just wakes up and goes on the couch upstairs and then i start thinking, what happened? whats wrong? Then BAM, before I know it I'm doubting myself, putting myself down, thinking of any excuse to hate myself, getting into that horrid cycle that keeps hammering you further and further down so that all you have left is to curl up and hide from the world and then tell you about it. Sorry for the rant, it needed to be done for my sake, just maybe a different perspective can bright more light to this. Right now I'm trying to say, you had a great day don't let one little setback bring you down