feeling pointless, no things to do.

[Falkor]

Hello,

So I´ve been not going to school since 3 years. I'm dying to start again, because i'm bored, I feel worthless, because of staying at home everyday.
I don't have a goal, I need a goal in my life.
Right now my goals are;
*Going to school again (although it will be hard... with my severe sa)
*find a nice job
*make music again

But How... how can I make this possible.
I hate my friggin life, I really want to do something, this sucks so much.
I have a counselor who wants to help me go to school again but I didn't hear anything in 5 weeks. This makes me feel pointless.

I start blame myself, because it's my own fault. I decided to quit school, but I know it's the way to get out of my cycle of living a pointless life.. ::

I'm afraid what people think, because I don't have any goals, sure I do have some goals like going to therapy soon, see friends, make music and stuff.. But I need a real goal.. I want adventure in my life.. I want to have a life full of chances and facing people everyday.

What can I do...?

 

[Confuseddd]

You can never give up hope. If you want these things , then you can have them, it is all a matter of never giving in to your bad thoughts. Those goals are great for starters , and they can lead to bigger goals. A job is a huge step , after you get a job you will have money and some bigger goals can then be made. Like getting a car , ect . .
It is a step by step process , and you can do it
High school would be great for you to go back to. If you could graduate then that would open so many more doors for you. But if highschool was not an option you could still get your G.E.D , which will allow you to go to a community college and that would help out alot for you. Have you put any thought into what you would want to do in your life for a career ? This question is not easy and sometimes takes awhile to figure out. All these things you want are very possible i promise as long as you always carry the fire inside
It might help you too write down what you want to accomplish , and then cross them off as you do them.

 

[Snowdrop]

You can do all of those things if you really want to. Like Confuseddd said, it's a matter of putting your mind into it and believing that you can. I know it's easier said than done... even though I am at college I still feel like I'm dragging myself there everyday and feel numb in lessons. But at the same time it's good to know that I am doing something for myself in the long run, it means I'll get a better career, so it's great that you are decided on what you want to do and yeah, don't lose hope To be honest, I wasn't really sure what to say to you here but I wanted to help since all I only ever really ask for help here...
Don't lose hope, and don't care what other people think, you're gonna be that girl who never lets go of her dreams and walks the path that she wants to. If anything, people will admire you for being brave enough to overcome your fears. The best thing to do is to take action yourself coz you gotta start caring for yourself - contact your counsellor again if you can, and if not, there's nothing stopping you from what YOU want apart from yourself. We all believe in you here.

 

[jus]

This isnt realy a real goal i guess.. but why dont you plan to go on an oversea's trip by yourself or with friends ?
Thats what Im doing in March.

Hello,
But I need a real goal.. I want adventure in my life.. I want to have a life full of chances and facing people everyday.

What can I do...?

 

[Falkor]

You can do all of those things if you really want to. Like Confuseddd said, it's a matter of putting your mind into it and believing that you can. I know it's easier said than done... even though I am at college I still feel like I'm dragging myself there everyday and feel numb in lessons. But at the same time it's good to know that I am doing something for myself in the long run, it means I'll get a better career, so it's great that you are decided on what you want to do and yeah, don't lose hope To be honest, I wasn't really sure what to say to you here but I wanted to help since all I only ever really ask for help here...
Don't lose hope, and don't care what other people think, you're gonna be that girl who never lets go of her dreams and walks the path that she wants to. If anything, people will admire you for being brave enough to overcome your fears. The best thing to do is to take action yourself coz you gotta start caring for yourself - contact your counsellor again if you can, and if not, there's nothing stopping you from what YOU want apart from yourself. We all believe in you here.

Thanks Snowdrop, I won't lose hope, but at the same time it looks like nothing will ever change. But maybe I should be a little more patience, but at the same time i'm frustrated because all the people around my age do so much and i'm not. So that suckkkkkkkks, but I know I can't help it, so that kinda makes me feel relaxed again. I will contact my counselor, and I will keep fighting. Thnx

@ Jus: I love doing those kind of things, seeing my friends and make fun, yes I should plan something like that, I will ask my friends. Funshine heals my wound for a while, a good laughter and a good time always is blessed.

@Confuseddd: Yeah so many doors are going to open if I will graduate, that's why I will never stop fighting for that. So I will keep trying.. thanks

 

[MollyBeGood]

Hey Flowergirlie, why aren't u in school? I hope it's not cuz of your anxiety...are you home schooled then? I am sorry to seem nosey at the question you don't have to answer if you don't want. )
*HUgs*

 

[Falkor]

Hey Flowergirlie, why aren't u in school? I hope it's not cuz of your anxiety...are you home schooled then? I am sorry to seem nosey at the question you don't have to answer if you don't want. )
*HUgs*

Hey Mountaingirl , I'm not in school because of my anxiety.. Yes ::
Because I don't know how to deal with this, but I'm really willing to make a brand new start =), its ok, I just have to find a way to cope with my sa.
I just got a letter from my counselor, i was like whoa great
I hope my chance will be there soon, but I know it will be hard..
But I should not let my chances slip away

 

[Lionheart]

School isnt such a problem but working is.I find it to hard to search for a job because of the job interviews.

 

[MollyBeGood]

Hey Mountaingirl , I'm not in school because of my anxiety.. Yes ::
Because I don't know how to deal with this, but I'm really willing to make a brand new start =), its ok, I just have to find a way to cope with my sa.
I just got a letter from my counselor, i was like whoa great
I hope my chance will be there soon, but I know it will be hard..
But I should not let my chances slip away

I really hope you can get back to school. As much as it sucks and it reallllllly does....you will be so happy you pushed through and did it.
Your future IS bright, don't let the b.s. of your SA etc get in the way of you seeing that. Don't let anyone tell you different.

 

[Pacific_Loner]

Can you sing in front of people or you are too anxious? Because if you can, why don't you pack up some clothes and your guitare and go travel across europe, singing in the street to earn money to continue travelling? You say you are looking for adventure. You would be terrified for the first weeks but passed this hell you would have the time of your life.

 

[Feathers]

Well, about singing in the streets, a friend of mine does that.. She just goes to another city... For any longer journeys I recommend teaming up with a friend or two, it's safer and more fun if more of you go 'on the road' - or even just for a vacation and sing there too...
It can be maybe even fun to team up with older musician/s and sing at a hotel or something?

Also, make a list of what is fun and 'adventure' for you? That way we can suggest more interesting things!!

 

[Falkor]

@Pacific_Loner, Feathers: That's such an awesome idea guys ,
But I first want to become a little bit more stronger on my feet
But I love that idea, that is really something I would like
I could say It's one of my dreams, to tour around the world and make music
So maybe I will be doing that in a few years::

I will sure make a list, i will write it down tomorrow =)

 

[Feathers]

Yeah, do make a list and write it down!

She also goes to open mike nights, and posted a video of one such night just the other day... She's brave! Together with a guitarist, they also had another singer...
She even performed some gigs 'for pay'!! It wasn't much, just a little, but it sure feels great to be paid for singing, no?

They are not very known (yet?) but they had concerts anyway, and she/they make some great music and have fun!!

I did some mini gigs too, a few years ago, and it was fun but scary!! Afterwards, it felt really great though.. So expect to be scared and expect to most likely feel awesome afterwards too!! It's good to have your friends with, and go party afterwards, if possible!!
(make sure to be nice and friendly to the sound guy, was the advice I got!! )

Hmm, I think I'll make a list too, he he... You're inspiring!!