feeling 'off'

[cowboyup]

I've been feeling 'off' lately. Like the littlest things will make me so angry; my SIL's voice, my brother, and other people - i.e. @ college. I feel like I am all of a sudden engulfed in anger, rage, irritation, just at the sound of their voice and I don't know why. And a lot of this time I feel like I want to cry afterwards because I feel guilty for having these thoughts.

Anyone else get this way, and if so, how to cope or why?

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

YES!!!!! Everyone is irritating me lately. Just the sound of their voice is enough. I'll start imitating them under my breath and mumbling other unpleasant things.
I just want everyone to STFU. Their needs to be a Holiday called STFU Day. Seriously!

 

[Lamb]

*raises hand* I do.

I become very sensitive to certain sounds like the television volume, or a spoon banging against a plate while a family member eats. My brother's voice is very deep which i can't drown out sometimes. It makes me want to crush his adam's apple in during times like these. (evil, i know)

It occurs more during certain times of the month, or if I'm in a cranky mood to begin with.

The only thing that's helped for me is popping earphones in and blasting music, or retreating to a quiet place. Also acknowledging that it is just a moment which will pass, it normally isn't who I am- which allows me to feel less guilty.

 

[cowboyup]

Their needs to be a Holiday called STFU Day. Seriously!

I like that idea, STFU Day

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

*raises hand* I do.

I become very sensitive to certain sounds like the television volume, or a spoon banging against a plate while a family member eats. My brother's voice is very deep which i can't drown out sometimes. It makes me want to crush his adam's apple in during times like these. (evil, i know)
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Hehe....violent but cute.

 

[cowboyup]

*raises hand* I do.

I become very sensitive to certain sounds like the television volume, or a spoon banging against a plate while a family member eats. My brother's voice is very deep which i can't drown out sometimes. It makes me want to crush his adam's apple in during times like these. (evil, i know)

It occurs more during certain times of the month, or if I'm in a cranky mood to begin with.

The only thing that's helped for me is popping earphones in and blasting music, or retreating to a quiet place. Also acknowledging that it is just a moment which will pass, it normally isn't who I am- which allows me to feel less guilty.

Good idea, maybe I should get out my earphones!

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

I think the reason you feel like this (as I do myself) is that you're miserable and unable to change your situation. It's like being caged. Very similar to adolescence where you're not completely in control and many of the problems you're dealing with are too big and overwhelming.

During these episodes of rage and irritability, I feel emotionally similar to when I was a teenager.

 

[cowboyup]

^ good point, maybe (at times) it all just gets too much and kind of boils over, so to speak.

 

[MikeyC]

Yeah, depression usually makes me utterly irritable to even the slightest noise, and it amplifies more unpleasant noises like hearing someone eating, breathing, talking/shouting, and so on.

I agree with ImNotMyIllness in that it could be your situation - you're looking after a lot of kids, who aren't yours, for a mother who seems to not care too much about your well-being, or the kids' for that matter. Your general anxiety can't be helping, either.

I'm not sure what to suggest, since it seems you're imprisoned in this situation at least for the short-term. Try to go for walks, or delve into hobbies/interests of your own. It's not much but it can help sometimes.

I could also lend you some of my most brutal death metal and you can totally piss everyone off by blaring that!

 

[Kiwong]

Anxiety and depression causes me to lose patience.Walking through the shops make me very irritable, so many people too manouvre around.

 

[Xervello]

I've been feeling 'off' lately. Like the littlest things will make me so angry; my SIL's voice, my brother, and other people - i.e. @ college. I feel like I am all of a sudden engulfed in anger, rage, irritation, just at the sound of their voice and I don't know why. And a lot of this time I feel like I want to cry afterwards because I feel guilty for having these thoughts.

Anyone else get this way, and if so, how to cope or why?

Could be stress, I s'pose, but then you'd prolly realize that. Perhaps pent up disappointment with things? I dunno, prior to this were you happy with things, the school, the people and the whole experience of it?

 

[WishingICould]

Everything and everyone is getting on my nerves at the moment. I think that's due to depression. Ironically, my depression is worse because i feel alone but everyone is getting on my nerves so i can't be around them.