Phantasystar4
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All my life i've never felt like I was the smartest person in the world. I wasnt very good in school for one thing. Sometime people talk to me and i'm so much in my head that I dont even hear them. I always felt like something was wrong with me. I dont talk very well...though I have to say i'm alone all the time. I am the quietest person and very rarely talk. I always wondered if me not talking all that well was because i'm constently alone. Is that an excuse i'm making or is it possible that never talking somehow made me rusty at talking? Whenever I say something I just feel like I said it wrong or that it sounded really stupid and I keep replaying in my head the few words I managed to get out of my mouth over and over again.
But all this to say that today at work I just looked like a complete idiot. I got promoted not too long ago. I am now a superviser. But the director (my direct boss) kind of told me it was not only because i was a good worker but also to help me out. I left my work for 6 months because of a suicide attempt and they know about it. So I guess they are trying to make me break out of my shell.
So today someone at work was asking me a very simple question. She was a few desk away and I didnt hear her all that well at first. But even when i did hear her I just couldnt understand. I always thought this person was smart and the question she asked was too simple, not to say stupid. So I really didnt understand what she meant. But anyway after yelling it 6 times even in a different language then my main one (french) lol I finaly walked to her desk to see better what she asked which was what i had understood already. That didnt stop everyone from laughing at me. God I was so embarassed:shyness:
I did a few I.Q test in the past and its really not bad at all. Then why am I always so slow to understand. I sometime think I have bad hearing but now i'm wondering if its just my slow brain not processing what people are asking me.
ahhh I hate feeling that dumb...
But all this to say that today at work I just looked like a complete idiot. I got promoted not too long ago. I am now a superviser. But the director (my direct boss) kind of told me it was not only because i was a good worker but also to help me out. I left my work for 6 months because of a suicide attempt and they know about it. So I guess they are trying to make me break out of my shell.
So today someone at work was asking me a very simple question. She was a few desk away and I didnt hear her all that well at first. But even when i did hear her I just couldnt understand. I always thought this person was smart and the question she asked was too simple, not to say stupid. So I really didnt understand what she meant. But anyway after yelling it 6 times even in a different language then my main one (french) lol I finaly walked to her desk to see better what she asked which was what i had understood already. That didnt stop everyone from laughing at me. God I was so embarassed:shyness:
I did a few I.Q test in the past and its really not bad at all. Then why am I always so slow to understand. I sometime think I have bad hearing but now i'm wondering if its just my slow brain not processing what people are asking me.
ahhh I hate feeling that dumb...