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Expressing my inner thoughts
- Thread starter Nathália
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This is my 3rd year in college because a few months after I dropped out I signed up for another school.
It sucks that this school can not take my credits because of a difference in degrees. For me it always go smooth in the start, I start off with good grades and then I hit a bumpy road because I feel like I need a mental break. When I'm in school it's like 95 percent of my brain power is invested in it.
OCD does not help! I'm not the best at making an argument without fallacies. I gather research to support my position and I feel like my head wants to explode putting it into a logic that everyone can understand and I have to read over things and repeat them until I'm sick in the stomach.
It becomes my daily mantra. I eat it, sleep it, it breathe it, bathe it. I'm dramatic, but I do that to add some humor to my depressing life. If I take myself too serious it has an effect on me. If I can't enjoy much else, well I have myself. It may sound sad, but if I don't I can spiral downwards.
I need to find a way to take a chill, I need help with relaxing. The clay sculptures take too many hours, so I switched back to writing as my only hobby right now and I'm having fun with it and at the same time my brain can't relax because it's always worrying. I can't just say it is what it is, more like this is how I vision it and I want to make sure it comes together. When it pertains to my school work and art.
I need someone to tell me it's going to be okay and reassure me because I am all over the place trying to accomplish things. Someone to keep my company, I talk to people but I can't talk to them like I used to because my views on life has changed so the conversation is more shallow. Tried the friends thing and it felt pointless because no one stayed in touch. :kickingmyself::kickingmyself:
It sucks that this school can not take my credits because of a difference in degrees. For me it always go smooth in the start, I start off with good grades and then I hit a bumpy road because I feel like I need a mental break. When I'm in school it's like 95 percent of my brain power is invested in it.
OCD does not help! I'm not the best at making an argument without fallacies. I gather research to support my position and I feel like my head wants to explode putting it into a logic that everyone can understand and I have to read over things and repeat them until I'm sick in the stomach.
It becomes my daily mantra. I eat it, sleep it, it breathe it, bathe it. I'm dramatic, but I do that to add some humor to my depressing life. If I take myself too serious it has an effect on me. If I can't enjoy much else, well I have myself. It may sound sad, but if I don't I can spiral downwards.
I need to find a way to take a chill, I need help with relaxing. The clay sculptures take too many hours, so I switched back to writing as my only hobby right now and I'm having fun with it and at the same time my brain can't relax because it's always worrying. I can't just say it is what it is, more like this is how I vision it and I want to make sure it comes together. When it pertains to my school work and art.
I need someone to tell me it's going to be okay and reassure me because I am all over the place trying to accomplish things. Someone to keep my company, I talk to people but I can't talk to them like I used to because my views on life has changed so the conversation is more shallow. Tried the friends thing and it felt pointless because no one stayed in touch. :kickingmyself::kickingmyself:
ImNotMyIllness
Well-known member
The nightmares of an OCD brain. I'm all too familiar.....sigh! The only thing that allows me to cope is my zany sense of humor. I worry about everything too!