Don't Wanna Be Fixed?

[go-go-ghost-ship]

It sounds odd, but I really don't want to get rid of my problems. Even if they're crushing and slightly crippling, they're a big part of my identity. I can't be someone else.
Does anyone else feel like this?

 

[this_portrait]

Sometimes it's not about "getting rid of" your problems; sometimes it's just about finding ways to cope with them and keeping them in check.

I don't think I'll necessarily ever be rid of my SA and whatnot. All I can really do is just push it to the side so I can get by in this nasty world.

 

[Nathália]

I do want to stay introverted. I had to find out there is a difference between me being a introvert and my SA. In many way I don't want to change being a quiet person and to myself because it makes me feel comfortable, but then I want to be able to be around people with out panicking.


I really don't want to change either, Just saying there are somethings I really dislike about it :-/.

This is weird but I sometimes feel good when I get nervous, it's like an addicting feeling like a high I don't want to get rid of.

 

[MikeyC]

I do want to be more successful around women. I absolutely want that part of me to take a hike.

 

[Silatuyok]

I can understand feeling that way, but I definitely want to be "fixed." I would still be as introverted as ever, I just would not feel so awful about being so.

 

[GhoulsNightOut]

I felt that way when I was a teenager, but I was sort of rebelling against my brother and eventually the whole world. He used to complain about how I'm always negative and that I have a bad attitude. I took that as he wanted me to be all bubbly for his comfort so he wouldn't have to deal with my crap, so I sort of "let" myself be depressed by not doing much about it because my punkass mind was thinking, "I ain't changin' for no one!"

 

[Kiwong]

I'm not sure fixed is the right word.

More to change to a more outward perspective rather than drowning in introspectivity.

 

[SilentBird]

It sounds odd, but I really don't want to get rid of my problems. Even if they're crushing and slightly crippling, they're a big part of my identity. I can't be someone else.
Does anyone else feel like this?

Yes. Without my sickness and disorder I am left with little, precariously close to nothing.

 

[Srijita52]

I don't think my problems are my identity, I see them as more of a limitation. I don't want to change who I am but I do want to improve myself by dealing better with my weaknesses.

 

[Kat]

Yeah, most of it I accept introversion is fine in my opinion I think anxiety is something separate that’s not much fun but it does keep you on your toes. I’m up and down with that. I don’t get depressed as much anymore I’m fairly optimistic until I’m anxious and full of doubts but I’m able to acknowledge the good stuff.

 

[Gaucho]

i sometimes think the same, and i had times in my past were my SA was nearly gone, and i was exposed to the world, had to do all the "normal" life things, what stresses very much and a person can get down very easily. So i think like this: i somehow want/need these problems because its an excuse if i fail or not do something.

i hope my explanation is not too bad expressed

 

[Dovir]

I just came back to this forum thinking the same thing. Lately, I've been getting a lot better about my SA and being a little bit more social with people. I still have SA, but a part of me is terrified of not having social anxiety or shyness anymore. I'm scared that I won't be me anymore, like I've become someone else. This has been my "safe haven" for the longest time, so used to having it ever since forever.

If I ever become "normal," I'm afraid that the "old me" will die off and I really don't want to be somebody else. But yeah, this Social Anxiety that we all have is an limitation, like some other people said in the thread. At the same time, I know that I have to move past this anxiety, and become more happier and comfortable with who I am. Change is always scary, I guess some of us are just clinging on to something that we feel comfortable with.. could be one of the reasons why it's so hard to not be this way.