Do you hate having to bite your tongue?

[SilentAndShy]

I'm not asking if people have literally bit their tongue lol but in an anxiety stricken way.

So, I bought a car few months ago which due to my anxiety, I don't use after having some near escapes and damaging the car. So it's left in the driveway and the odd time I do go out I take the bus.

One of my brother annoyingly constantly nags me about why I don't drive it. Tonight, he "kindly" reminded me again in the presence of my two older brothers.

**My response: "It's my car and if I want to drive it I will! So why don't you leave it?! I don't query your usage of YOUR car so get off my back!"

** denotes what I WISHED I could say.

In reality, I put my head down, played a game on my phone and became anxious, the hairs on my neck bristling and my face getting red and irritable. He eventually left.

But I fricking hate that feeling on you're unable to do anything when someone nags, attacks or criticises you and you have to "accept" it.

I wish I was a kid when I had a ferocious temper and would lash out someone was abusing, laughing or mocking me at home.

But now I'm a weak wreck.

 

[knr9311]

I relate. I can think things up in my head to say all the time, but it will never pass my lips. Sometimes, my sister can say some pretty crude things.. she even said something about SA one time when she knows nothing about it. I'm not even sure if she knows I have it. I always want to say something back, but instead I hide my face while it turns red & act like I'm looking at something on my phone.

 

[emre43]

What do you mean 'having to bite your tongue'? You say that as if you don't have a choice.

 

[mikebird]

Thinking of oral goings on internally...

I did bite at my cheeks. That was all over when I matured. Using teeth and jaw muscles and cheek muscles to pull at those bits. Places you can't point your eyes at. Just feel like pulling the skin anywhere on your body. Nothing like the ability to pull the cheek with the teeth. Near the front, where the mouth is. Can do it now. Not any more. Like stretching something and letting it go.

Hmmm.. maybe it is biting the tongue. Mmm...

When out of control - severe epilepsy - is a different world. I get a stage, near recovery, in bed, bit shocked. Smiling to be improving from coma stage. Cannot swallow. The basic human action. Something in the mouth. Drink. swallow. That bit is not possible. Dry mouth! Able to spit out what you put in there comes first. Needing intravenous treatment to provide nourishment. I moan & cry to a nurse. The natural ability not functional is dreadful. Have to eat tablets then. Can't. In mouth. Hard to accept. It always gets better, but when you think it never will, that is horrible. Swallowing the tongue is terrifying. All about your brain losing control of your body muscles, and just the basic reflex ones... laughing.

One more thing... age 18. Enjoying ourselves a lot! Lots o' fun! Up all night. Gurning. The onset of... maybe life's most severe time you have to smile so hard. I ground my teeth away! Not aware. The beat of the music, dancing all night made my mouth want to squeeze the teeth tight and grind at the pace of the beat. I can do it now. Never again.

Lost a lot of dentine. Lots of dentist work to restore, with caps / crowns. Glad I got 'em. I remember loads of white granules gathering and spat out. Loss.

Simply a passionate time of life. As if rubbing knuckles together or bang each other. Clapping! :applause: Hands in the air! Jump! Spin! Power!

Yayeah!! :sarcastic:

 

[Hellhound]

I wish I was a kid when I had a ferocious temper and would lash out someone was abusing, laughing or mocking me at home.

But now I'm a weak wreck.

It's the opposite. I was really submissive as a kid. Later, I became angrier at the world and started to snap at anyone who gave me a reason to.

 

[cocorose]

If I don't bite my tongue I usually blow up. I have to find an in-between.

 

[Lonelykitsune]

Yeah. Espcially when a person is really getting to me.

For example,there is a big abortion debate going on in Ireland at the minute over are very strict laws that put women in danger. Some modest proposals are being drawn up to allow abortions when women are suicidal or in great danger.

There are sevreal very vocal and extremist 'pro-life' groups like Youth defence who are protesting against this and use loads of mis-leading propoganda, lies and harassment.

I see them on the street in Dublin shoving pictures of late-term miscarriages in people's faces while talking utter ****e. I know what they say is BS but I just cannot get over my anxiety to really tear into them, like I've heard some people do. I have dreams of punching them in the face.

 

[SilentAndShy]

What do you mean 'having to bite your tongue'? You say that as if you don't have a choice.

Having to suppress your real thoughts, words and take what's coming from the other side. You do have a choice; you can speak up but my SA prevents me from doing so.

I wish I could go back as a kid and have that explosive temperament, I miss that.

 

[SilentAndShy]

What do you mean 'having to bite your tongue'? You say that as if you don't have a choice.

Having to suppress your real thoughts, words and take what's coming from the other side. You do have a choice; you can speak up but my SA prevents me from doing so.

I wish I could go back as a kid and have that explosive temperament, I miss that.

 

[laure15]

Yes, when people make me angry, I feel ready to explode but social anxiety prevents me from doing so. It's only when I get back home or go to an isolated place that I explode. I don't like holding my tongue but in many social situations, I have to.

 

[gustavofring]

Yeah.

Especially on my new job, I'm noticing guests are sometimes really being dicks for the heck of it. For example, I was doing night shift, and it was about 2.30 am, and a couple came in. I greeted them with "Goodevening", and then they said (within my hearing distance) "It was evening like 4 hours ago. That guy is a bit slow". I just wanted to say something rude back but couldn't, and shouldn't because I would lose the job if they complained.

I also have it in personal social situations. Sometimes people just say something rude, or under the belt, or stuff that's none of their business and I don't know how to respond to it and rather just ignore it or walk away from it, whilst later I think of all the things I should have said.