I think i hate myself more than anyone else ever could.
Well I wouldn't be really worried about it. I would make guy friends, because they always accept you for who you are. If anything I would bet I have it much harder than you. As a guy I only 2 friends who I rarely go out with even though I try to reach out to my one friend who doesn't seem to reply to my text messages and a few weeks ago I went to a social gathering game night about 15 minutes from me and had a nice conversation with this guy I met. I got his number if he wanted to hang out sometime, but when I texted him to see if he wanted to hang out, he told me he would try but he was busy. I guess I could try calling him again towards the weekend, but I'm doubting he really want to be my friend even though we had a nice conversation at the game night. Thing is I'll never have any hope with a girl long term in my life, because my day to day life is extremely simple and nothing really ever new happens. I'm introverted so I'm sure I'm hurt more by my personality than what you seem to be letting Once I finish having a first date with someone, there will be nothing much else for me to talk about because I will have used up all the general topics to talk about. I'm sure for you something new actually happens, so I wouldn't really worry about it. Surely you have it harder than me. This girl I'm going out with on Friday will likely grow bored of me after the 3 or 4th date even though I could converse well for the first or second date.