When I was in high school I met up with a girl and became friends with her. She was the closest thing I had to a human 'bond' through all of those years and the few years after as well. The problem is, the friendship became more of a power struggle, maybe it always was, but it became increasingly apparent. I was very much the passive one in the friendship and just kind of went along with everything and let myself be dragged around. I think this friendship has had a fairly profound effect on me, and contributes to a lot of the insecurities I have around building friendships with people now. Anyway, over the past year or so, I've gradually stopped talking with her, ignored her messages, and so on. At first I thought seeing her a few times a year would be okay, but each time I saw her the same feelings of inadequacy would rise up and I'd walk away with a pretty low opinion of myself. The problem is, its taken me 8 years to rid myself of this and to understand that it was an unhealthy friendship to be in. Has anyone else found themselves in an unhealthy friendship like this that they keep going back to or try to sustain, even if it meant some personal sacrifice?
Failing at relationships is one thing, but when one feels they fail at friendships too, it feels pretty hopeless sometimes. Aren't friends supposed to be more attainable and more accepting of you anyway
Failing at relationships is one thing, but when one feels they fail at friendships too, it feels pretty hopeless sometimes. Aren't friends supposed to be more attainable and more accepting of you anyway