I have never really cared about being in a relationship before or anything so I avoided dating at all cost because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it and I highly doubt that the guy would want to see me after the first time and that will live me even less confident (if it can get any lower) :sad: I cant handle rejection, it really affects me.
Anyway I have been talking to this guy on Facebook and he wants to meet on Monday and he seems nice and I kind of like him, I really wish I didn't
I am dreading it and am suffering from anxiety (pretty badly) every time I think about it
I am having really negative thoughts like I am going to be too quite, its going to be awkward, I am going to sweat excessively, will my hands be sweaty, am I going to throw up, is my voice will shake, what if he thinks I am ugly compared to my picture. All the negativity is making me want to get out of it,
I know how it will end and its not going to be good on me and that's the problem, rejection badly effects me. I have AvPD so
I am on anxiety medication but grrr they are not doing anything, I am a wreck and have been for a week now, I cant concentrate and yes I know it really shouldn't be as big much of a deal but I cant take my mind of it and the more I think about it my brain is making sure I see every flaw and everything I don't like about myself :crying:
This is why I avoid people I cant stand feeling like this, I hate being isolated and alone but feeling like this at times feels worse than trying to be social and getting out their.
My new year resolution was to get out of my comfort zone and believe that I can do more than I think and can do this stuff so I am going to do it but I just feel horrible
Its even worse that I am nervous just answering his Facebook messages :sad:
Any tip on how you guys find first dates? how do you handle it? what do you talk about? Experiences? or just advice anything will be useful
Anyway I have been talking to this guy on Facebook and he wants to meet on Monday and he seems nice and I kind of like him, I really wish I didn't
I am dreading it and am suffering from anxiety (pretty badly) every time I think about it
I am having really negative thoughts like I am going to be too quite, its going to be awkward, I am going to sweat excessively, will my hands be sweaty, am I going to throw up, is my voice will shake, what if he thinks I am ugly compared to my picture. All the negativity is making me want to get out of it,
I know how it will end and its not going to be good on me and that's the problem, rejection badly effects me. I have AvPD so
I am on anxiety medication but grrr they are not doing anything, I am a wreck and have been for a week now, I cant concentrate and yes I know it really shouldn't be as big much of a deal but I cant take my mind of it and the more I think about it my brain is making sure I see every flaw and everything I don't like about myself :crying:
This is why I avoid people I cant stand feeling like this, I hate being isolated and alone but feeling like this at times feels worse than trying to be social and getting out their.
My new year resolution was to get out of my comfort zone and believe that I can do more than I think and can do this stuff so I am going to do it but I just feel horrible
Its even worse that I am nervous just answering his Facebook messages :sad:
Any tip on how you guys find first dates? how do you handle it? what do you talk about? Experiences? or just advice anything will be useful