Well that's the end of that, completely, for good. That girl has now had a go at me for this and that, despite my last email to her being as nice as it could possibly be. I dared to mention a few of the things that she had done that had made me feel so bad, but I did it in such a nice way and even said I wasn't having a go at her but was trying to explain some things so she knew what I was thinking, yet she still managed to have a go at me for it. She said that she's seeing a quality of her ex Husband who made her feel guilty for things. Hmmm. It seems that she thinks she is a princess who is perfect, even when she is not, and that she can do anything she likes and look out anyone who dares to mention those things to her.
I spent around 3 days leaving her alone, with the only message to her being support ones, and I barely sent many of those unless she wrote first. I did everything I could and was sitting in my bedroom all day yesterday not eating because I was in such a state, as I really needed to hear from her and talk about some things we'd gone through, yet I still didn't bother her. Makes me a pretty nice bloke I think. Yet she still accuses me of things. She also went on about not knowing me very well and that's why she was more interested in someone else. That would be fine, so why the *beep* did she flirt with me, tell me how wonderful I am, even start making overly friendly suggestions, tell me she wishes things were different, etc, etc, etc.? She shouldn't have led me on like that, especially as she knows I'm single and find it incredibly difficult meeting new people.
She has completely screwed my head up. I've stopped holding back now and have told her exactly what I think of what she's done. The more I think about it, the more I'm wondering how much of what she told me is really genuine. I know for starters that her email address isn't her normal one, and I can't explain without giving some things away that I shouldn't do. Also she uses one name in forums and another privately - But now I'm wondering if either is real, or maybe the forum one is her real name? I just don't know. She had me convinced that she was real and genuine in every way. Every woman I get close to manages to somehow convince me that they are different from everyone else. I don't know how they all manage to wrap me around their little fingers. They never turn out to be genuine though!
All I can do is be a hermit and stay on my own and the rest of my life, and not even try to make any new friends, let alone more than friends. I won't trust anyone again (famous last words, I admit), no matter how decent and real and genuine they seem to me at first. I'll only get hurt, I always do.