Can't stop staring at people

Mike555

Mike555

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I drove with my dad in the car and my dad i think got nervous because of how i acted. he was driving more dangerously.. it's very dangerous. accidents can happen because of this CURSE. CURSE. CURSE. how am i supposed to be with a girl! how can i eat with her, and everything!!!!!!!!!!!!! WORSE THAN SOCIAL ANXIETY THis curse!
and i think i do have this around my family. i can't even sit. i could sit before. now i'm bowing down my head, just so i can't see them in my eye sight. oh god. it's most horrible thing in the world.

the worst is sitting in a bus or waiting in a line! people turn back. and you have no idea where to put your eyes on. so people look at you like what the heck is wrong with you. in the bus if 2 people sit infront of you. and you awkwardly try to look out of the window and those 2 people talk. when ever the guy who speaks turns to his guy who speaks. i imidately try to freeze or something because i know both of us can see each other. then he will look back at me. wtf. does this thing infect other people? if it wasn't infective, i wouldn't care at all. not sure if it is or not.

i got this ocd starring i think because i was trying to copy other people. i had social anxiety and wanted to observer. see how people react. where they look. 1 week or around before ocd starring started also i remember i sat in the train and we sat infront of each other with a guy, so both of us looked out of the window and it was awkward, i didn't know if 2 guys can't look out of the window in the same time. i don't know. so my eyes started to hurt because it was awkward both of us looking out of the same window and we could see each other. then he started to get pissed off so i looked down, i stopped looking out of the window. maybe this what started my OCD starring! DON'T KNOW FOR SURE, But also maybe me trying to observer PEOPLE caused it! not sure at all what caused it!! BUT IT'S A CURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it would be fine for me if i knew for sure this thing doesn't infect other people first of all. then i wouldn't care at all. i would act free and be way way happier. i'm not sure if it infects or not, or certain people.
 
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Akash9138

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This is really a curse and i can't get enough comfort and i m sucking these days. And i have got one more sucking disease its called phonophobia. It happens to me when i came to home from collage. There silence all around and I afraid of sounds. I m really sucking because my exam has started and whenever a sound i hear it sucks. I m afraid of getting fail in exams. And my neighbours create sounds repeatedly because they know i have mental disease
 
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Jus_lodge

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I've done the same thing for years, wherever I go it seems like everyone is looking at me when they're really not. It feels like everyone is judging me. So most of the time the only thing I can do is try to keep my head down but even that I struggle with. I've tried all the breathing and relaxation things but they don't seem to work very well. My relationships with my friends have gotten progressively worse because of this fear. It's especially hard to be calm in crowded shopping centres and restraunts so I judt avoid them at every opportunity.
 
Mike555

Mike555

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I WANT TO SCREAM, SCREAM SO HARD, AND RUN AROUND, FREAKING DESTROY THINGS on how fked up my life IS. URGH!!!!!!!! FK THIS OCD STARRING, FK IT. **** IT **** IT! AND ALSO I LOST MY DREAM GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE OF ****IN SOCIAL ANXIETY, SCHIZOID, GENERALIZED ANXIETY DISORDER AND OCD!!!!! she loved me soo much!! she cried so badly when she let go of me.

URGH!!!!!!!!!! ****KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

****IN HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to go crazy but i don't want people to see me like that. i'm too intellegent and i really don't want to emberass my self! i want to cry so hard but tears are not coming out. i want to scream the hell out! I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN! SO MUCH PAIN IN THIS ****ING LIFE!!!!!!!!! **** **** EVERYTHING!

my life in general sucks. i feel dead, i don't feel like i live. when i talk to people. i make them feel awkawrd and they become nervous because of me. i effect other people with my behavior and talking. i'm too aware of everything and alert of everything. **** this medicine. i'll start taking it tomorrow but it causes diseases. **** those headaches, i barley can sleep at nights. it hurts so badly that i feel like i need hospital sometimes or i think i will die if i won't be able to fall asleep.

*CRYING*
 
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johnco1992

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I hear you Mike...im in the same situation. I feel so dull, so lost. I don't think I can continue living like this much longer. I have lost everything that I thought was good in me...thanks to ocd.
 
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RegalSin

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People come and go; be thankful for the interesting creatures you exprience in your life. Our eyes are a gift. Some people are born or lose their sight. Just be happy your able to see things. Think about variety of the world itself. It goes on forever. Then zone it out because you can sleep and be glad to awake.
 
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Akash9138

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Jus_lodge said:
I've done the same thing for years, wherever I go it seems like everyone is looking at me when they're really not. It feels like everyone is judging me. So most of the time the only thing I can do is try to keep my head down but even that I struggle with. I've tried all the breathing and relaxation things but they don't seem to work very well. My relationships with my friends have gotten progressively worse because of this fear. It's especially hard to be calm in crowded shopping centres and restraunts so I judt avoid them at every opportunity.
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Hi
Do you became normal again?
This curse is increasing day by day.
now i stare at my family members.
 
Quietguy11

Quietguy11

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I have a similar problem, except it's not me that stares at people, but I constantly notice people staring at me. <_< My parents tell me it's because I'm attractive, but I don't get the vibe that it's a positive thing. I always feel that there is something about my countenance or facial feature that draws unwanted attention. The vibe is always bad because it always produces paranoia. Sometimes I just want to stare back at them and say "What the hell are you staring at!" but I know that'll just make me look like a basket case. <_< This usually occurs at work, and to this day I have no idea why.
 
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RegalSin

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How about just not caring anymore about peopl. Looking at things is an normal thing to do.
I stare at my teachers/professors waiting for instruction. I mean omgsh it is the end of the world. They are going to start thinking I am gay or something? I mean zomgsh I am awaiting for an order professor, I am suppose to pay attention to you or my work pick one already.
 
Mike555

Mike555

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WTF. it's not about caring. easier said than done. it's impossible to think that way and easily stop it (it's not about starring normally but from the peripheral vision, which is non-stop, for example you sit in the bus - there is guy in your right side, so you won't be able to stop starring at him, and try to avoid peripheral vision eye contact even though you don't stare directly at him). it's ****ing hell and i ****ing blame my ****ing army (dad forced me there) for making my life so ****ing miserble. ****ing hellish mother ****ers. they gave me 3 severe problems after i was released from there. 1 chronic insomnia which makes me so ****ed up during the day. second problem PSTD from awkward situations. i always get anxiety which goes for hours upon hours of worrying if i made some situation awkward over thinking. for example in middle of the night remembering and it's same as mental torture. third OCD starring.

I can't go on the streets normally. always when i have to encounter people infront of me. it's hard. i probably look like a ****ing criminal because of this stupid OCD. this is so ****ed up. i hate it. hate it. there's no point in living life with those 3 problems. before i just had severe social anxiety and schizoid. now ten times worse. it made me lose my dream fantasy girl (nothing sexually), have awkward situations with past best friends and over think everyday. and i think about it for monthes and it doesn't STOP!! the analysis. i can't meet none of my friends now!!!!!!

edit: posted this when i didn't sleep almost at all at night. this what insomnia causes. ANGER like crazy!!
 
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johnco1992

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Damn it only seems to get worse. Not only do i have this but intrusive thoughts have taken over me. It's been so long since I've been genuinely happy. I'm so f'n tired. I want to be alone, i want this to end
 
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Akash9138

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Mike555 said:
WTF. it's not about caring. easier said than done. it's impossible to think that way and easily stop it (it's not about starring normally but from the peripheral vision, which is non-stop, for example you sit in the bus - there is guy in your right side, so you won't be able to stop starring at him, and try to avoid peripheral vision eye contact even though you don't stare directly at him). it's ****ing hell and i ****ing blame my ****ing army (dad forced me there) for making my life so ****ing miserble. ****ing hellish mother ****ers. they gave me 3 severe problems after i was released from there. 1 chronic insomnia which makes me so ****ed up during the day. second problem PSTD from awkward situations. i always get anxiety which goes for hours upon hours of worrying if i made some situation awkward over thinking. for example in middle of the night remembering and it's same as mental torture. third OCD starring.

I can't go on the streets normally. always when i have to encounter people infront of me. it's hard. i probably look like a ****ing criminal because of this stupid OCD. this is so ****ed up. i hate it. hate it. there's no point in living life with those 3 problems. before i just had severe social anxiety and schizoid. now ten times worse. it made me lose my dream fantasy girl (nothing sexually), have awkward situations with past best friends and over think everyday. and i think about it for monthes and it doesn't STOP!! the analysis. i can't meet none of my friends now!!!!!!

edit: posted this when i didn't sleep almost at all at night. this what insomnia causes. ANGER like crazy!!
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hi
Did you get your medical treatment?
Any improvement in you?
 
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eagle02

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Did anyone find a medication/solution that has helped them with this?
Is this maybe an eye problem, or is it actually anxiety-related?

I've been having this exact same problem for the past 1.5 years. It has absolutely ruined my life. I lost everything ... my friends, my job, my whole entire frikking life. And it's killing me ... I can't be around my loved ones, b/c of this shitty problem. I honestly don't know why I'm living anymore. I just want to quit on life, and end this suffering :(
 
Moses199

Moses199

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I got over big part of this, by intentionally putting myself into starring situations. Meaning i would got outside and find starring situations, if they made me too uncomfortable i would stay as long as possible then leave, then find another one later on when i feel better. Little by little i was able to stay in situations longer until it didn't bother me anymore.
 
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Moses199

Moses199

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When you guys do the exposure for prepheral starring, you don't have to stay in one starring situation forever because that's very difficult. You can leave the situation and move to a next one, but u have to stay there till your starring reaches a very high level before moving to next situation, otherwise you are not building resistance to the fear. You should try staying in each situation longer and longer each time. If you give up dont worry you can try again, that's why i love this exposure!!
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For example i will tell you what i was doing when i was at the DMV the other day...
I went to a long line and look around the place to find starring direction that will make my starring bad, i finally noticed that if i look to my side i would automatically start starring at the people behind me. so i would stare at my side and stare at people behind me until i felt really uncomfortable then i would look away. After i felt good, i would look at my side AGAIN repeat the process. Eventually i felt if i keep looking at my side the people will start noticing my starring so i stopped exposure for that situation and move to another spot on the dmv with fresh people, so the new people will not notice my starring. So don't feel like people will notice your starring because if you get that feeling you can just move to another situation with fresh people.

That's just example of how i did it one , and showing u that you can take a break from the situation to recover yourself, but u still need to return or move to another situation after the break. Like u seen me posts on the group, my starring has gone down TREMENDOUSLY, i would say 70% gone after 3 weeks. If i keep going i have no doubt i will even have starring or fear it will return.

Here's some encouragement:
1) Exposure therapy doesn't work, or does it? : Avoidant Personality Disorder Forum - Psych forums
2) www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iGk87bug2s
3) Social Anxiety to Boss
 
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Akash9138

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I stare everyone whoever want to talk with me or i m talking to anyone
i don't know how to normaly look in eye and talk. My brain have learned this behaviour of staring and it is not stopping.
i don't know how to make normal eyecontact with anyone
 
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