I don't like to use the bathroom too when my downstair neighbors are using it because i think they can hear each foot step i make, so I would have to slowy sneak inside like i'm sneaking into someones bathroom to steal something
When exiting i leave the door a little open so they won't hear it open when i come back in, or i'll shut it real quietly.
I've been called out for staring, but I've also been called out for NOT staring. It's weird I know. I just remembered an incident on the bus many years back. I was sitting there minding my own business when a guy kept staring at me. I looked away and pretended not to notice. Eventually the girl beside him (his girlfriend?) said in a loud voice that I was rude and called me an urchin. She started saying that back in their country (they look like foreign students), I would be ridiculed by the people. I could pick up a little bit of what they're saying because I could understand their language a bit. I got mad and looked at them and they looked away and pretended to not notice me. This went on for a bit. They kept looking and talking about me and when I look at them, they just look somewhere else.
I was livid, wanted to yell at them and tell them how conceited they are. It also hurts that the b*tch called me an "urchin" because she doesn't know me. I've known many people who are way worse than me, so I don't deserve to be called that. Eventually when I got off the bus, I feel so relieved. The next day, the bus came and missed my spot so I ran after the bus. When I got on, I saw that b*tch from yesterday. She was laughing at me. Now who's the "bad guy", huh? That b*tch was so self-righteous.
I'm just not sure what to think anymore. I get ridiculed even when I DON'T look at people, but I think it's a cultural thing. In some countries like America and the West, it's not polite to stare. But in other countries like China and Cambodia, the elders (people older than you) can stare at you all they want and they expect you to greet them first. If you don't greet them, it's considered rude and impolite.
I don't even know that couple who demeaned me on the bus. In fact, we're virtually strangers. It's the first time I'Ve seen them. So why should I greet them? I have no reason to. Plus, there were many other people on the bus. Why do they want me to greet them but not anybody else? The guy was staring at me hard, like he expected something from me. I just ignored him but he and his girl got mad for whatever reason.
Anyways, I got to move on from this. It's been eating at me for many years.
Did you have the starring peripheral problem at that time? That could be the reason why they were looking at you that way. Because there are times when people (mostly girls though) that look at me that way if i end up paying too much attention to them from my peripheral or any where on my field of view. But they usually look away or move somewhere else to get away from me. They sometime even give me a "What the f*ck are you staring at?" kind of look.
There was this one time in the bus when i was sitting next to the window side. This girl sitting next me was trying to look at the direction i was looking at from the window because she couldn't look the other way. Every time she would look at the direction i was looking i would focus on her from the peripheral.
She started to notice what i was doing and then looked at me for the longest time (probably 10 seconds or more) even though i was trying hard not to look at her. But I finally gave up and looked at her, she was looking at me with a "What the Hell?" laughing look like I'm some kind of retarded kid then moved to the front of the bus to where i couldn't see her.
This made me so mad because i couldn't say nothing back to her even though she looked at me like I'm mentally ill. But the next time i saw her walking by herself she didn't say anything or look at me. I knew she knew who i was, she was just trying to act like she didn't know me
Okay, so I've had this staring/glancing problem for about a year and a half now. I'm eighteen and today was my first day of college. I watched others make new friends and participate in class and it makes me so depressed to think of how that can't be my experience, because of this problem. My staring is so severe that if anyone in front of me turns around, I can't stop looking for their eyes, even though that is the LAST thing I want to do. I don't really have hope for my future because I'm not in control of my eyes (or my subconscious thoughts causing me to do this), my academic success (I can't focus in class because of all the people around me), or my feelings (I sometimes get so sad and thing of suicide so much that I don't even feel like I'm living in reality anymore. It's like, through my emotional stress and conflict, caused by this staring problem and my INTENSE social anxiety, I'm living in my own dark and dangerous world that is COMPLETELY ruled by my messed up mind. I'm scared, and also oddly hopeful at the same time, that I will soon not come out of that headspace and that that will cause me to finally kill myself.)
I don't want to die, but I feel so shameful and disgusted with myself when I talk to others of my problem. I've only told one person (my new counselor at college) of my staring problem, not even mentioning my depression (although, I did confess to cutting...), and I felt like I let myself down and very dirty and embarrassed in doing this.
Because I probably will never reveal all of my issues to another person, even a professional, I guess I am left to my own defenses. And, like I said, I can't trust myself.
So, tomorrow, and the whole rest of the week, I have class again. And, because I know I am not in a healthy enough headspace to stop this staring problem on my own, I also know that tomorrow will be nothing but torture, humiliation, shame, stress, anxiety, and total alienation from my peers and even my professors.
I should be excited about this new chapter of my life, but the thought of tomorrow makes me physically and emotionally ill, and I feel myself becoming more and more hopeless...
hello
I'm also around your age i notice we have the same staring problem. It's not our eyes that we can't control, but our mind. Don't try to fight against not- staring, because it's okay. We all know every person on this planet has stared at least a few times. Curiosity is a normal human-being behavior. You shouldn't let this aniexty take over your life. Why shouldn't you make friends like the people in your class? Just because of this one issue? I dare you to step out of your comfront zone and talk to someone. A 'Hi" would be good enough or a conversation would be great. And don't feel embarrassed or ashamed. If you read the previous posts on the "can't stop staring" thread, you'll see many people are in the same boat. Do you know what was in pandora's box? (look it up if you never heard of it hehe). Of all of the negativity and evil that came out of it, there was hope. Through all these bad things in your life, hope will arise, but only if you believe there will be.
Best of Luck! here's a virtual hug *hugs*
I also have a problem where I'm sitting down and another person would sit down just across from me, facing my direction. I don't want to look like I'm staring at that person, so I do things like pretending to look out at the window scenery, play with my phone, or sit there quietly and keep my head down. In fact this situation happened yesterday. That guy across from me got uncomfortable so he had to turn and sit facing the wall. I was uncomfortable too but I pretend to not be. If I showed any discomfort, I was afraid of hurting people's feelings and being labeled names I don't want to be labeled.