LycraPantiies92
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I'm wondering if how i feel could maybe be the start of bi-polar..or just anythin else lol, i really am desperate to know why i feel how i do. I won't put up with it much longer, i know when people read this they'll label me, there's nothing i can do about beeing the way i am..feeling the way i do. I don't actually care what any of you think of me..i'm gona be completely honest. and tell me what yh think.
Yh i looked at the wiki article.
Signs and symptoms of .. Bi-poler
the depressive phase of bipolar
disorder include persistent feelings of sadness,
anxiety,
guilt, - that i wish i wasnt born? that i feel ive no place in this world. yh.
anger, yep. are others that are supposed to undertand yet dont (to me ) seem to.
blocked someoene on the yahoo msnger thingie last night coz i got pissed off at waiting for a reply. out of order 4 me cos i was so upset i wanted 2 speak to that guy there and then, not in 10 mins from then.
isolation, or hopelessness; - yeah that whole i go out alone i come back alone sayin ive made. and its true. i do everything alone. nobody knows i exist reallly..except close people ie ma mum/family.
-that theres no pint as no1 will ever accept me in this society.
disturbances in sleep and appetite; - em, stayin up all night cryin and over eatin?..then yh i do.
sleepin radum times when i can thru the day, takin wee randum naps.
fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyable activities;
nt bein able 2 get up and losin sight of y i'm in college.
problems concentrating; well yh findin it hard 2 sit thru the whole classes in college, i did used 2 have no probs with this
id cope. and work hard, despite bein sa.
loneliness
extereme loneliness. honestly now, having no real life pals, and very few, like 2 onliine that dont even like me probably makes me sure that am compeltely alone, and it is tbh. it's loneliness and it can't be denied that it wud probably make me feel this sad. after a long time of it, and no sight of it improvin..
self-loathing - yeah the whole nobody will ever want me sxhte, which atm i see is kinda mayb not true. but still usually is, was last night defo.
loss of interest in sexual activity;
Lol! aye i don't exacly get any anyhoo.
so cnt be disinterested in it..so i don't know
shyness or social anxiety; irritability,
clearly. all the time. worse when ii feel depressd thoughh.
chronic pain (with or without a known cause); nahh.
lack of motivation; and
morbid suicidal ideation. well wudnt say it was morbid but i was srsly gona do it and needed 2 talk 2 that lad i did talk to else i wuda done it and tried to get someone in real life 2 stop me, and they wud not have. just 2 know sum1 was there 4 me 2 talk 2 even if not genuine. was a help, but if that guy wasn't around who knwo if i cud have tried, i was that sad. ;(
happy-
hmm elevated mood state..;/
increase in energy and a decreased need for sleep. - yeaah. well i go thru needin less and managin on 2-6am and do oki goin out on that. not when ii feel depressed thoughh ]:
Judgment may become impaired;
- yh, thinkin i'm the queen bee. thinkin i look sooooo mch better than everyone else. thinkin im a pwincess and makin mysel feel like..kidden myself.
sufferers may go on spending sprees or engage in behavior that is quite abnormal for them
yeah i steal ma mums credit card or ask for it but speand way more than i said i would. ie like £50 when i said i needed sumthing 4 college that was like £20. ::
Nope don't do substance abuse.
Their behavior may become aggressive, intolerant or intrusive.= well i've shouted, sworn had hissy fits 2 ma mum and even hit people. kicked ma mum once an brused her leg. ;/
coz i felt rli mad and cudnt stop myself. shuda taken the anger out on the door (agen evn thou ive gt holes in it)
People may feel out of control or unstoppable.
..or other grandiose or delusional ideas.
Sexual drive may increase.
yeah. i em..y'knw..like to use fake things that i wish was a person. ;/ and feel pure sexy for like 1 night .. and think i cud get any man in bed wiv me etc. rli silly tbh =[ kiddin myself.
yeah so those are the ones i can agree with. cuda wrote more but i knw i agree..meh. x
Yh i looked at the wiki article.
Signs and symptoms of .. Bi-poler
the depressive phase of bipolar
disorder include persistent feelings of sadness,
anxiety,
guilt, - that i wish i wasnt born? that i feel ive no place in this world. yh.
anger, yep. are others that are supposed to undertand yet dont (to me ) seem to.
blocked someoene on the yahoo msnger thingie last night coz i got pissed off at waiting for a reply. out of order 4 me cos i was so upset i wanted 2 speak to that guy there and then, not in 10 mins from then.
isolation, or hopelessness; - yeah that whole i go out alone i come back alone sayin ive made. and its true. i do everything alone. nobody knows i exist reallly..except close people ie ma mum/family.
-that theres no pint as no1 will ever accept me in this society.
disturbances in sleep and appetite; - em, stayin up all night cryin and over eatin?..then yh i do.
sleepin radum times when i can thru the day, takin wee randum naps.
fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyable activities;
nt bein able 2 get up and losin sight of y i'm in college.
problems concentrating; well yh findin it hard 2 sit thru the whole classes in college, i did used 2 have no probs with this
id cope. and work hard, despite bein sa.
loneliness
extereme loneliness. honestly now, having no real life pals, and very few, like 2 onliine that dont even like me probably makes me sure that am compeltely alone, and it is tbh. it's loneliness and it can't be denied that it wud probably make me feel this sad. after a long time of it, and no sight of it improvin..
self-loathing - yeah the whole nobody will ever want me sxhte, which atm i see is kinda mayb not true. but still usually is, was last night defo.
loss of interest in sexual activity;
Lol! aye i don't exacly get any anyhoo.
so cnt be disinterested in it..so i don't know
shyness or social anxiety; irritability,
clearly. all the time. worse when ii feel depressd thoughh.
chronic pain (with or without a known cause); nahh.
lack of motivation; and
morbid suicidal ideation. well wudnt say it was morbid but i was srsly gona do it and needed 2 talk 2 that lad i did talk to else i wuda done it and tried to get someone in real life 2 stop me, and they wud not have. just 2 know sum1 was there 4 me 2 talk 2 even if not genuine. was a help, but if that guy wasn't around who knwo if i cud have tried, i was that sad. ;(
happy-
hmm elevated mood state..;/
increase in energy and a decreased need for sleep. - yeaah. well i go thru needin less and managin on 2-6am and do oki goin out on that. not when ii feel depressed thoughh
]:Judgment may become impaired;
- yh, thinkin i'm the queen bee. thinkin i look sooooo mch better than everyone else. thinkin im a pwincess and makin mysel feel like..kidden myself.
sufferers may go on spending sprees or engage in behavior that is quite abnormal for them
yeah i steal ma mums credit card or ask for it but speand way more than i said i would. ie like £50 when i said i needed sumthing 4 college that was like £20. :
:Nope don't do substance abuse.
Their behavior may become aggressive, intolerant or intrusive.= well i've shouted, sworn had hissy fits 2 ma mum and even hit people. kicked ma mum once an brused her leg. ;/
coz i felt rli mad and cudnt stop myself. shuda taken the anger out on the door (agen evn thou ive gt holes in it)
People may feel out of control or unstoppable.
..or other grandiose or delusional ideas.
Sexual drive may increase.
yeah. i em..y'knw..like to use fake things that i wish was a person. ;/ and feel pure sexy for like 1 night .. and think i cud get any man in bed wiv me etc. rli silly tbh =[ kiddin myself.
yeah so those are the ones i can agree with. cuda wrote more but i knw i agree..meh. x
