irandom97
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helllo, im 15 years old and am in grade ten.
last year, in grade 9, i developed a panic attack disroder and social anxiety. in december i was put on prozac 20mg, but little has changed.
before the prozac, i had alot of depersonalization thinking and i only figured it out once i got on prozac because my depersonalization thinking slowed down to the point where i dont think like that 247, but there are some days when i do.
my problem is, i have problems when i look in the mirror, its like i dont know if im really ugly or really pretty, and that leads me to be really shy when talking and i really have problems talking to people face to face, i feel like im not good with facial expressions and i am awkward looking when i listen to people, and/or talking.
being in highschool really makes me feel ****ty about myself and i start doubting whatever i do. when i see all the teenagers around me, i always think they are thinking negativly about me. the weird thing was, once grade 9 ended and summer came, i was so happy. i had confidence in myself, everything was back to normal and i thought maybe, my prozac finally kicked in and grade ten would be different.
now, grade ten is here, and the first 2 weeks were fine. but a couple days ago, i went out for a smoke with my two friends and shortly after i went into the washroom and started having a panic attack. i was breathing heavily, staring at myself in the mirror, and those depersonalization thoughts came back.
i would like to know if anyone could relate, is that when im in class, i start looking at the big picture (my depersonalization thoughts im guessing) and telling me self, " wow. im in a highschool class, with such a big classroom, with so many kids i dont know, with that weird kid in the back row, etc. " like im looking in a movie. my thinking of why this happens is because when i wasnt in hs, i would watch alot of highschool movies and think those exact things and be so excited. and now that im in it, it freaks me out alot. can anyone relate or give me advice of this aswell?
anyways, sorry for so long. can somebody relate to this at all or give me some advice? grade 9 i ended up skipping alot and crying in the bathroom stalls for the lunch and i wanted grade ten to be different,
thank you and i appreciate it
oh and by the way, i was diagonsed with social anxeity but not depersonalization. im certain that i do have depersonalization because it was rerally bad when i wasnt on prozac, my mind was racing 247 about every little thing, i could never make up decisions, (like if i had dp) but once i got on prozac i knew i did have it 247 before.
last year, in grade 9, i developed a panic attack disroder and social anxiety. in december i was put on prozac 20mg, but little has changed.
before the prozac, i had alot of depersonalization thinking and i only figured it out once i got on prozac because my depersonalization thinking slowed down to the point where i dont think like that 247, but there are some days when i do.
my problem is, i have problems when i look in the mirror, its like i dont know if im really ugly or really pretty, and that leads me to be really shy when talking and i really have problems talking to people face to face, i feel like im not good with facial expressions and i am awkward looking when i listen to people, and/or talking.
being in highschool really makes me feel ****ty about myself and i start doubting whatever i do. when i see all the teenagers around me, i always think they are thinking negativly about me. the weird thing was, once grade 9 ended and summer came, i was so happy. i had confidence in myself, everything was back to normal and i thought maybe, my prozac finally kicked in and grade ten would be different.
now, grade ten is here, and the first 2 weeks were fine. but a couple days ago, i went out for a smoke with my two friends and shortly after i went into the washroom and started having a panic attack. i was breathing heavily, staring at myself in the mirror, and those depersonalization thoughts came back.
i would like to know if anyone could relate, is that when im in class, i start looking at the big picture (my depersonalization thoughts im guessing) and telling me self, " wow. im in a highschool class, with such a big classroom, with so many kids i dont know, with that weird kid in the back row, etc. " like im looking in a movie. my thinking of why this happens is because when i wasnt in hs, i would watch alot of highschool movies and think those exact things and be so excited. and now that im in it, it freaks me out alot. can anyone relate or give me advice of this aswell?
anyways, sorry for so long. can somebody relate to this at all or give me some advice? grade 9 i ended up skipping alot and crying in the bathroom stalls for the lunch and i wanted grade ten to be different,
thank you and i appreciate it
oh and by the way, i was diagonsed with social anxeity but not depersonalization. im certain that i do have depersonalization because it was rerally bad when i wasnt on prozac, my mind was racing 247 about every little thing, i could never make up decisions, (like if i had dp) but once i got on prozac i knew i did have it 247 before.