WeirdyMcGee
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As a woman with agoraphobia, I've done alot of things I'd be embarrassed to try explaining to someone/anyone, really.
My therapist once asked why I felt embarrassed, since I'd often use that word.
Apart from being embarrassed about hating how I look and about being such a whimp-- I've gone days, weeks, months at times without proper nourishment, without taking a shower, without leaving my bedroom.
I remember one time, I had been in my bed for a few days and I had to pee- but I was too scared to leave my room because I could hear people out in the hallway; so I went in a bottle.
Yes.
I'm ashamed.
I feel pathetic and useless all the time and SO stupid.
I've heard similar stories from some more 'famous' agoraphobics-- and some similar stories from my father who was a hermit in the mountains for 8 years... so I know I'm not alone, but it's embarrassing to talk about.
Does being ashamed ever help you to push yourself to do the things you're afraid of?
Share your stories if you'd like.
I hate to say it... but it rarely does for me.
I just hate myself more and more and don't bother to push myself-- then hate myself even more for not pushing and doing my best.
I'm very critical of myself. I'd like to think I have some amount of pride left but there's probably close to zero in reality. hah.
My therapist once asked why I felt embarrassed, since I'd often use that word.
Apart from being embarrassed about hating how I look and about being such a whimp-- I've gone days, weeks, months at times without proper nourishment, without taking a shower, without leaving my bedroom.
I remember one time, I had been in my bed for a few days and I had to pee- but I was too scared to leave my room because I could hear people out in the hallway; so I went in a bottle.
Yes.
I'm ashamed.
I feel pathetic and useless all the time and SO stupid.
I've heard similar stories from some more 'famous' agoraphobics-- and some similar stories from my father who was a hermit in the mountains for 8 years... so I know I'm not alone, but it's embarrassing to talk about.
Does being ashamed ever help you to push yourself to do the things you're afraid of?
Share your stories if you'd like.
I hate to say it... but it rarely does for me.
I just hate myself more and more and don't bother to push myself-- then hate myself even more for not pushing and doing my best.
I'm very critical of myself. I'd like to think I have some amount of pride left but there's probably close to zero in reality. hah.