Yeah so with me its just like i veiw holidays (especially Christmas) as a family holiday and being that i only have two people in my family, i just dont see the point.
I hate talking to my family i always have to put on a fake smile and do all the small talk sh@t and it feels so awkward! My family really doesnt understand me and hanging out with them is like torture they dont understand me and i know this sounds really really really terrible and i hate myself for thinking it but i wish my family would hurry the f@ck up and die already!!
Or mybe im the one that should die, so they dont have to constantly be trying to pull information and smiles out of me against my will. It must not be pleasant for them either... i mean if i cant stand myself, then they probably cant either..
Mybe i should blow my f@cking brains out so i would never have to endure through this holiday sh@t again...
sorry for the language...
I hate talking to my family i always have to put on a fake smile and do all the small talk sh@t and it feels so awkward! My family really doesnt understand me and hanging out with them is like torture they dont understand me and i know this sounds really really really terrible and i hate myself for thinking it but i wish my family would hurry the f@ck up and die already!!
Or mybe im the one that should die, so they dont have to constantly be trying to pull information and smiles out of me against my will. It must not be pleasant for them either... i mean if i cant stand myself, then they probably cant either..
Mybe i should blow my f@cking brains out so i would never have to endure through this holiday sh@t again...
sorry for the language...