jellzzz
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i have a very sweet boyfriend, but sometimes there are some little problems in the relationship, mostly because of my anxiety. i can get very jealous and i like to have control of thinks. i am very insecure and i have problems with trusting people. i really HATE this about my self, mostly because it affect my relationship. but sometimes, like now, i just don't know if it is my stupidness again, or that i really have a respectable reason to feel this way.
my boyfriend lives not that close to me so we see each other only in the weekend. for the rest of the week we skype. but when we skype, he does a lot of other thinks on the internet too. this doesn't really bother me, im doing the exact same thing right now, but most of the time i don't. and it makes me really sad when he is just so much into 9gag or facebook or whatever that he just doesn't notice me anymore. its really hard to keep up a conversation when you have anxiety problems, and the person you are speeking to is not paying attention to you. the only ansers i get ar "yeah" "uhu" "i love you too" and akward silences. i just feel unwanted when that happens.
but i don't know if i have the right to feel this. it is probably just another controlling thing i do because of my anxiety and i don't want that. i don't want to hold him so tight that he runs away.
i would love to ask him to just do nothing on the internet when we are skyping, but i don't know if thats normal, and if i irritate him. please don't say he will eventuely leave because of al this controlling "rules" i make because i am insecure; im well aware of that and it makes me scared.
my boyfriend lives not that close to me so we see each other only in the weekend. for the rest of the week we skype. but when we skype, he does a lot of other thinks on the internet too. this doesn't really bother me, im doing the exact same thing right now, but most of the time i don't. and it makes me really sad when he is just so much into 9gag or facebook or whatever that he just doesn't notice me anymore. its really hard to keep up a conversation when you have anxiety problems, and the person you are speeking to is not paying attention to you. the only ansers i get ar "yeah" "uhu" "i love you too" and akward silences. i just feel unwanted when that happens.
but i don't know if i have the right to feel this. it is probably just another controlling thing i do because of my anxiety and i don't want that. i don't want to hold him so tight that he runs away.
i would love to ask him to just do nothing on the internet when we are skyping, but i don't know if thats normal, and if i irritate him. please don't say he will eventuely leave because of al this controlling "rules" i make because i am insecure; im well aware of that and it makes me scared.