Tmeister...
Its bcuz you put this girl or any girl you are attracted up on a pedestal..and out of your reach, in a way..a love from a afar type thing.
The first problem with this is you never see yourself as her equal or yourself ever being on her level...you can't connect with her and be your TRUE self...you are too afraid to reveal who you are and don't think you are worthy and thats a real shame BCUZ YOU ARE WORTHY!
If you can't let her get close to you or ever let her get to know you thats a real problem bcuz how can you ever develop anything with her..a friendship even..or hopefully something romantic and lasting.
STOP looking at her like an ''angel'' something perfect and untouchable! She is no different then you..she is human being with a heart, fears, desires, faults, etc.
She wants what you want; love, a relationship and a family of her own..she's no different then you!
Annnnd the poem was good, something to think about..i think you need to change your mindset or NOTHING will ever change for you