Your comments are SA Controlled... What does that mean
Before SA played a big part in your life, you could see that you have a great family , friends etc.
btw you still know they are by your opening statement, you've changed not them!
SA grew stronger in you, and all that you loved gots swallowed up by the disorder.
The good news is you can control it and get some normality back to your life ..
But this takes a lot of continual work, good and bad as it's all part of the learning process, and like Tuco said you've got your youth.
Tell me....What happens when you walk into a coffee shop, what's you reaction or thoughts??