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Sigh. My mom just came into my room to share a story with me. She volunteers, talking to lonely seniors over the phone. She came in talking about how one of her seniors is going to the hospital and not coming out.. and she brought up a previous moment she had shared with her 2 months ago when a...

Do you have a reliance on something? Alcohol, gaming, drugs, (obviously the computer will be mentioned often!), running, eating, cutting. Something that you feel like you need to get by. Second question: Is it harmful or helpful. I mention this because I feel a reliance for alcohol and pot...

I have one acquaintanceish friend who I rarely hang out with, sometimes because of my SA/AvPD but mainly because he is very nervous around me because he "likes" me or whatnot, and he does not stop talking. I'm not a talkative type, I'm the type that would rather hang out with a tree and be in...

I always feel so guilty about posting my depressing rants on this wonderful site. But I feel that I am losing all hope. I have, in 3 weeks, gone from inspired, ready, brave, content to depressed, careless, a void. The things I care so deeply about I can't connect to anymore, the wonderful...

I can't find a reason for it myself. These people that would see me if I walked outside I think very little of, and yet I let them turn my own mind against me . For instance, the thread "They Do Stare", people always tell us that others aren't actually giving us the attention we assume they are...

I feel too lonely to try to improve at this point, but I hate myself too much to want to find friendship. I am finding it very difficult to live with myself... I'm bitter, and I feel heavy/fat, and it shouldn't be taking as much of a toll on me as it is. I know that if I lost weight, I'd be...

my mom left my ****ing treadmill at the house we moved out of and it's at the dump. I feel doomed, my body is already tunneling into feeling of self harm, I was very reliant on running. I have tried running outside at night but in the new town i'm in there are mobs of drunk teenagers...

I haven't heard a lot about BDD on this forum... who else has it around here? I've boiled it down and realized that 10-20 extra pounds is the only thing keeping me in this house, harbouring my self hatred. It's the fat around my face (chin specifically), stomach and breasts that I hate with...

I don't have this disease anymore, but I realize now that I had it pretty bad as a child and young teen, enough to attract some nicknames. I was wondering if any of you have tried water fasting. I have heard that a significant cause of hyperhidrosis is eating foods that you cannot tolerate (of...

Hhmmm..so, 1-2 weeks ago I had a week all by myself, the last week in my old house before my family moved, and that week I lived in the old house by myself. I saw immediate improvement in myself, I finally stuck to my raw diet, I was exposing myself to the outside world everyday, I even went...

I wanted to make a thread where people can slowly expose themselves and share it and hopefully get support, or have others do the same things "with" them and share it or something. Somebody on youtube (after seeing the clip in the "fun things to do to beat SA" forum) was talking about how they...

I've been a lot calmer these last few days, I feel my judgement towards myself and others lessening dramatically, I've gone outside a lot lately, I've gone on a walk, I've been going to the grocery store every day (on a freaking bus!) and I've even hung out with an old friend.. so I began to...

I don't feel emotions anymore. I don't recognize them. My therapist cries when I speak of some aspects of my life and I stare...and I SMILE... I know when I'm angry, lonely, and jealous.... but I don't feel it. I don't feel it. I can feel myself stifling my feelings even if I don't want to, I...

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Lying awake in bed last night, I realized something.I feel like I have a cycle of addiction, that goes like this: Idealize about a stranger, if I meet the stranger (rare circumstances) I at first obsess, then they don't meet my expectations or I feel inferior and or exposed around them, then I...

Most of us are lonely, and don't receive much human contact let alone human comfort and understanding. My therapist is the only person I've ever felt almost comfortable sharing my whole self with, (most of which I haven't discovered yet). Because she's the type that does show her own opinions...

I don't dream very big, apparently. Utah! Looks like my kind of playground :D

Recently I've discovered that I'm either gluten intolerant or a celiac. I haven't gotten the testing done, but my mom has gluten sensitivity, it's suspected that my dad has it too, and I've been sick every day of my life with the symptoms. Speaking of symptoms.... Depression and anxiety are...

I've hated myself all my life, even subconsciously when I thought I had changed, even during these gaps where It appeared as if i've beaten my SA. I still feel like the scum of the earth. Positive affirmations never did much for me...How do you make yourself worthy? How do you make yourself...

The one thing I want in life, if anything, is to live more primitively, and with nature. Out, open land, none, or little, people, hard labour that keeps busy, focusing on our most primal instinct; to survive, no time for anxiety, no expectations of society, bye dirty greed and sick and sad...