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Lying awake in bed last night, I realized something.I feel like I have a cycle of addiction, that goes like this: Idealize about a stranger, if I meet the stranger (rare circumstances) I at first obsess, then they don't meet my expectations or I feel inferior and or exposed around them, then I...

Most of us are lonely, and don't receive much human contact let alone human comfort and understanding. My therapist is the only person I've ever felt almost comfortable sharing my whole self with, (most of which I haven't discovered yet). Because she's the type that does show her own opinions...

I don't dream very big, apparently. Utah! Looks like my kind of playground :D

Recently I've discovered that I'm either gluten intolerant or a celiac. I haven't gotten the testing done, but my mom has gluten sensitivity, it's suspected that my dad has it too, and I've been sick every day of my life with the symptoms. Speaking of symptoms.... Depression and anxiety are...

I've hated myself all my life, even subconsciously when I thought I had changed, even during these gaps where It appeared as if i've beaten my SA. I still feel like the scum of the earth. Positive affirmations never did much for me...How do you make yourself worthy? How do you make yourself...

The one thing I want in life, if anything, is to live more primitively, and with nature. Out, open land, none, or little, people, hard labour that keeps busy, focusing on our most primal instinct; to survive, no time for anxiety, no expectations of society, bye dirty greed and sick and sad...

My SA decided to get worse when I began to gain weight rapidly after eating way too little for a few months. I've been stuck in the realms of food and weight obsession for a year now, I know it's mainly what keeps me from leaving the house now and that just makes me eat for comfort even more...

If you're one of the many perfectionists on here, who when completing any task, be it social or work-based, needs to perform flawlessly or refuses to perform at all, and if you're a control junkie (which I only today accepted about myself), I recommend the book Too Perfect: When Being in Control...

I crave attention and company, but as soon as I have it I feel as if there is nowhere I belong, worthless, scared, I feel more alone when I have it. I feel as if i'm living to find people I belong with, but it's impossible for me because holding anybody's attention feels so damn ALIEN, I crave...

A thought that's been haunting me for awhile... My family was very judgemental, and i'm sure a lot of you had/have judgemental parents or peers. Now... i'm wondering whether I picked up this judgemental mentality from my parents and sisters, and assume negative judgement will seep from every...

I'm so lucky to have found this website, you people are so understanding and amazing. Really, you all help put my life in the right direction every day, and without the aid of such generous souls my days would be glum. :) Social anxiety really does have a positive side, either that or you are...

I need to call my school before 4 and i've been a total recluse lately, so it's taking a toll on my nerves. I automatically turn to food and booze at moments like this but I need some healthy alternatives to deal with the stress that's flooding me right now.

I've been practicing lowering my standards, and trying to realise what i'm doing to impress others and what i'm doing truly for myself, and now... I just don't care about my "future". By "future", I mean that I realise I was going through with school to keep up to society's standards, and the...

Crying in front of people is my worst nightmare. When I feel on the verge of tears around my therapist I freak out, and quickly think of unrelated things. I've only cried in front of anybody twice in my life, and both times my mom made fun of me for crying and walked away. "Oh, now you're going...

My neighbour has been powerwashing his drive-way for nearly an hour.... I don't understand how people can do this when we should be preserving water, and energy. Why the **** does your driveway have to look clean??? ..It arises such a deep passionate anger in me... o_o;; ..-twitch- For the sake...

I have to see my social worker today and this is the situation I hate most. I hate showing emotion!! When I talk about bad moments in my past I say it with a smile, I don't let it penetrate my conscience, and I hate coming off as negative (i've always been told I am..) but my social worker sees...

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Over the past two weeks something in me has changed.. I used to think I had a purpose and could change the world and in a short month I've decided this is what's putting all these heavy high standards on myself, so i've ditched the idea. Only problem I guess is that now I see myself as a nobody...

Idk, I guess I need some comforting. I feel like I'm throwing my life away because of SA. This is pretty much stress because i'm a high acheiver who is now failing grade 11 and there are 2 weeks left of school. I haven't been to school in about 1-2 weeks, and it's been a checkered 2 months...