thanks ^.^ I have definitely enjoyed my time in these forums. It's really nice to hear other people's accounts of what they're going through, it makes me feel better. I always knew I wasn't alone, I know lots of people must be going through this (a lot who don't even realize it, I think) but it's been really interesting and helpful to compare experiences. I think it's also inspiring to hear people talk about how they're working through it. It's helping me to push myself more.