Write to your cousin what you posted here. Don't be too proud to reach out and ask for help. Who knows, maybe he can get you an internship in Las Vegas. Ask him for advice, and be honest. But, if you would like to work out there, ask him point blank.
Having Depression SUCKS! Even with my new found perspective and determination, it will knock you on your butt now and then. But, I guess how long you stay on your butt, depends on positive coping techniques, habits, SUPPORT, and even medication.
TALK TO HIM. You'll be glad that you did. Everyone needs a mentor. Ask him to be yours! Don't let PRIDE get in the way.....that's a ticket to nowhereville.