LadyWench

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...When I finally realized that it was all in my head, because at that time it had never occurred to me that all I do is just think about my health. So I told my personal doctor about this situation and she directed me to a psychiatrist, who confirmed that I had hypochondria... I told her everything, but she was very laconic. She didn't told me you have this, you have that... And before she proposed what medication I should take I told her that I don't want medication and that I'll try to recover by myself. Well... I could not. I already created that habit for worrying about my health too much. So then I started taking medication and slowly over the course of a few months my obsessive thoughts disappeared. I can't tell everything in detail because there were so many things in my mind back then... I was very confused and I couldn't think straight. So that's my story in a nutshell.

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Well, I'll try and remember most of the stuff I went trough. I had constant fear about my health... physically and mentally. My mind was restless all the time. I had panic attacks all the time. It was just awful. First I thought that I will go crazy and stuff, then I thought I had high blood pressure and might have heart problems. I've been to a cardiologist, they said my hearth is healthy... I've been to my doctor numerous times, even to the emergency room where they said I had a nervous breakdown. So then I started to think that there is something wrong with my nerves... I went to a neurologist, they said that there was nothing wrong. I was going back and forth between different health concerns. I was looking up the internet about symptoms...

PART TWO_2
When you already created a habit of negative thoughts and you find it really hard to overcome that habit, then medication is very useful. It will set the stage for you to a path to self-recovery which you alone must find. Pills or psychiatrists will not make you feel better. They can only guide you to the right direction, but it is all up to you and no one else. So don't give medication too much credit, because the real medicine is in YOU.

And don't worry I don't see anything creepy in your posts. I know exactly what emotions and what thoughts you have. I've been there too. So in a way we know each other to a certain extent. And I am willing to share my views on this subject with the intend to try and help you in some way.

PART ONE_2
You should not feel trapped in your mind. That's not the way to approach it. Your mind... that is YOU. Nobody is keeping you trapped in yourself. This feeling of being trapped is just a false experience of yourself. The true experience comes when you direct your thoughts and actions on what you want instead of what you DON'T want. You have to focus on the positive instead of the negative. These two opposites contradict themselves in every aspect and are very recognizable and easy to understand. So you have to realize here that there is a balance between them. Imagine a balance scale... the more weight you put on one side the more that side leans and overcomes the weight on the other side. It's similar with thoughts. If you keep exercising negative thoughts in your mind they will eventually become a habit and the positive ones are going to diminish and vise versa. So it is very important to maintain that balance between these two kinds of emotions...

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So now I find myself apologizing to you for MY long post. I like to think about stuff a lot. I guess I just better set my thinking in a more positive way.

PART TWO
What we must understand is that real happiness does not come from the external world. The happiness that most people know is the one invented by today's society. The real happiness is within us and is not defined by external things. Finding inner peace and accepting life as it really is. That is the true source of our happiness. This way you can grasp and understand the world we live in. We all have inner knowledge that we need to seek. Because knowledge is power. And once we have that power we have the strenght to control our lives. I am not saying that finding that inner peace is easy or that there is some switch with which we can just turn off our negative emotions. But we have that opportunity and it is within us. Like every great thing in life it takes time, patience and practice. And there is nothing greater than living in peace with yourself.

PART ONE
I'm pretty sure it's nothing to worry about. I know how you feel, but try to look at things from a different perspective. Why worry? What does your worrying do to help you? Can it prevent things from happening? No. You know your real source of the problem - It's all just in your head. And that is one of the powerful truths that you can use against your fears. Try to rationalize your thoughts. Don't pay attention to every potential "symptom" that may give you a scare. In fact embrace that present moment. Live with it in peace, not fear. For fear is just an illusion, it may feel real, but actually it is not. Pain and suffering are inevitable in life. Every single being has suffered in life. But in the end it all ends. It had a beginning it will have an end. Embrace life, accept it with all of it's imperfection. It is within us to seek happiness and feel and live good.

It's okay, I like long posts.

I used to take Mirtazapine na Haloperidol-Richter, but now I only take Mirtazapine every evening before I go to bed. Medications are only half the battle. We can relate on a number of levels and I hope that you fell better soon! I really do!

My day was good. Thank you for asking, my lady!

I don't like to think that I HAVE, but that I HAD hypochondria... And I also had Panic attacks and maybe some other things that I don't really care or don't wanna know about. I've been on medication for almost six months and still am. I want to put everything that happened in the past, not keep it in the present. So now I'm trying to change my way of thinking and stop worrying for my health so much.

I haven't posted in your thread, but I know how you feel about your typo thing. ::

So how are you doing?

Well it was one late night that I decided to go to bed and try to get some sleep... So I turned off the lights and went to bed where I laid there in the dark for a good 10 minutes or so... and... I couldn't fall asleep. All of a sudden I thought about if there was a discussion about hypochondria here on SPW. With that thought in my mind I got up turned on the computer to check. And... Boom! Your hypochondria thread was on the front page! lol I checked back a few minutes later and your thread wasn't on the front page any more. The timing was pretty weird.

Hi there! And thank YOU for accepting my request. It was kinda weird the way I found you.

hoi oi

how are you ???? sorry i have not been on in ages my laptop got completely ****ed up and some dick head hacked my account here too....!!!! hope ya well beautiful....!!!!

xxxx

Hope you're doing well too and have a nice holiday season.

I guess I've always been too scared to go to therapy. Now that I actually feel like I could go I don't have health insurance. But, I'm lucky enough to have a friend with SA so I guess my therapy is just talking with her.

I'm doing all right, I guess too. Just can't wait for winter break. Ah, yes I love cats lol. I've never been to therapy, how's it going for you?

You're welcome. So, how are you? cool avatar btw

Thanks for accepting my f/r.

yupyup, totally friggin scared of getting h1n1. this kid from my old school died from it, so i bugged out really bad. i would. =P
& vomiting is the WORST!

yeah, i understand what you're saying. i'm worrying right this second, i just got the h1n1 vaccination and i'm totally flippin shit, thinking its going to make my heart act up and i'm going to like die of a heart attack.
ugh, i have the worst of hypochondria. lmao.
i'm sure if you were in my situation with the pills, you would've done it too. i was so scared i was gonna die, and i probably would've if i didn't vomit. leave it up to my stupid act-and-think-later state of mind. i'm not like that anymore, which i'm grateful for. :] i don't do quite so much stupid things, and i don't constantly wake up in the morning wondering where i am anymore. haha.

panic disorder is just RIDICULOUS!
but yknow, i can psych myself out of it. it's all in the mind. =]
i used to have a fear of vomiting, but one day i took a shit load of pills, decided to tell my friend i thought i was gonna die because of them, and she wouldn't let me out of the bathroom until i vomited. needless to say, i was in that bathroom for over two hours. but i needed to do it, i found out later the amount i took was WAAYYY too much and i probably would've died had i not regurgitated them, haha.
so just shrug it off with a whatever. dig what im sayin?