alice_down_the_rabbithole

Yeah, I totally understand what you're saying. Panic disorder (like any other mental disability) is all in the mind. It CAN be controlled, but it's very difficult. I'm glad that your friend made you vomit those pills up. Something terrible could have happened if you didn't, so that's good. It's great that you were able to overcome that fear and do it for the best. I wish I could do something like that, heh.

Right now I've got a cold/flu thing going on. I get it every year around this time. Logically, I should tell myself that I'll be okay and it will go away soon. It just takes time. But alas, I can't do that. It's like I HAVE to worry and expect the worst. I'm programmed that way.

Hey alice did anyone ever tell you that you are ****ing cute?

Whats up?

Oh, gosh. I'm sorry. I know that feeling all too well. Take a rather normal "symptom", and turn it into something deadly. Hell, I'm doing it right now as I type this. I don't have any symptoms of being sick, but I can feel drainage in the back of my throat. It's gross and bothersome, but not deadly. Sadly, I can't shake my current anxiety over it. It gives me the feeling of having to gag, which freaks me out because I literally have a phobia of vomiting. Then because of my panic attack, I get shortness of breath...but freak out over that, too.

ANYWAY. Sorry this is long, lol. I hope that your tumor fears have subsided. I'm glad that we can at least relate to this stuff. Panic disorder is definitely a bitch.

now i see,lol.
i have 5 lessons sometimes,i cant stand those,im just sitting there wondering around,not paying attention to teacher,cause i just cant,getting really uncomfortable,laughing about nothing,looking at clock,counting minutes to go home,it's just weird,lol.
damn i say lol too much.

They are very hard to find because they have been discontinued twice. Your only hope now is to find one on ebay o'r something. I brought mine brand new and it was the only new one i could find in the Uk online, i wanted a sonic blue but i had to settle for a fiesta red colour....Still beggars can't be choosers! Have a look in my album if you want to see it.

Sure it is.
I'm 18,but i dont look like it,there is few pics of me in that picture topic,if you want to see.
Are those "periods" like lessons or break after lessons?I couldnt really understand,lol.
i usually start to feel uncomfortable after third,i start to feel depressed,sweat(we usually have four lessons,each 80 mins),i dont think those are panic attacks,not sure if i ever had those at schools or anywhere,maybe i just cant remember.ugh,so confused.

You're so lucky! I have a guitar like Kurt had; A red Fender Jagstang. Kurt designed that guitar.

aw get it done, girl! haha.. i love it! i don't care what people say or if they think it's trashy, it keeps me entertained, lmao... seriously though, i'm constantly playing with it... and it didn't even hurt, much less than the septum i bet!! btw, i love pretty girls with the septum pierced, it's so cute on you!

cheers for the add
i hope your not too dizzy, maybe it time for a thread about that

Yeah they are great. Have you got all their albums?

awe,you look older than me,lol. [:
and yeah,sure we can,i'm fine at the moment,seems that i usually get depressed after getting back from school,ugh,that place is so ..depressive. ok,no,it's quite fun as long as i have this one guy,i could say he's a friend,but we usually are having fun,so laughing makes me feel better,even though sometimes i sit there in class and laugh alone like an idiot about nothing.

Awe,i hope it'll get better for you.
I guess i'm quite paranoid also,idk,this day,i'm falling into depression again,argh.
Btw,i like your avatar,you're charming,can i ask how old are you? =)

I'm okay, thanks. How are you?

Aha! You also like Nirvana! I recognize the lyrics to 'Dumb' under your 'about me'

We'll hang out on clouds, and then we'll come down and have a hangover

Hi, i'm fine thanks, how are you?
I'm not even much of a Beatles fan but i recognize those lyrics anywhere!

Feeling good today,thanks.
What about You?

Hiya.
Nice umm..septum pierce,i think it's called that,right? =P

Hi. Thank you for the friend request and the nice picture comment.