I have a feeling "true friends" are non existant

As I assume, many believe friends have plentiful benefits in regards of helping you and encouraging you. But inside some of those "friends" they easily mask their deceitfulness, honesty, and kindness. I have been burdened with the same type of damn friends no matter how I try and be a part of them. And what does that follow up to? Just another way of piling their rude, unacceptable behaviors on top of me as much as I try to tolerate with it. To all people who are going to say because you don't stick up for yourself. Well you know what, standing my ground is an even worse attempt to stop them. No matter if I stand my ground or not, I lose in the end. I try and try, and I fail and fail and fail. That's all I do. Fail . Now, I'm becoming to realize that I have become those nice weirdos who try and cheer up people, but for what? I have done nothing but waste my precious time offering my kindness, my respect, and especially tolerance to those who have been acceptive and unacceptive of me, that includes my family as well. They just think of me as that weird girl with weird interests and a weird personality that isolates myself from them, other people too. My main question to ponder is, if this whole true friends things is just one big hoax. Most people would say "There tough to find" yadadada, but you know what, I find it all to be bull. Sure there might few nice people out there out of the world's percentage, but even there are true friends who in the end mask their nice faces to show off the true colors that defines them. What true friend is going to sit down and listen to my problems, what true friend is going to accept me for who I am? Because as far as I can tell, zero of them. I'm very dissapointed in parents who can't raise their kids better with their behaviors, a sign of not good parenting. But you know what the biggest thing I have learned, that isn't me who has to change their behaviors, but it's me who has to change just for their selfishness. I believe this society has an unfair equality with these people getting away with this and that because that's who they are, and these people can be locked in hell's jail to get all the misery and loathing hurled at them. So, when I grow up and have a job(hopefully) I'll still communicate, pretend everything in life is filled with rainbows and flowers, and try to make aquantances. But that's all I'm going to offer to people in the real world. Just aquantances, and that's it. I don't want to fish for friends anymore because I'm done. I don't want any friendship, the extroverts can find other extroverted friend to keep them company, they don't need to find a person like me for them to worry about my quietness because that chance is now dead. Until then, maybe being hermit is the best option for me. So, I just want to let everyone know that I've attempted my friendship tasks and now I'm done to do them.

Does my head in

So called ****ing friends don't see them for a few good months on end a good few months back my friend popped over well long story short he's moved back home to save money to move to oz anyway he's family was away on holiday he was worker so he didn't want to spend money on food so used me as a meal ticket popped over chatted wormed his way into me ending up buying take out for us both didn't see or hear from said friend for ages posted a message on facebook I did and he replied with something like **** off only wrote that I was gonna cook a horse steak with steamed veg .. same person when he had his gf was with her for 5 yrs this happened 3 god damn times be chatting away and would say oh its my bday soon and then she would say oh babes its your bday soon 6months or some crap and then pull the conversation onto what we gonna do for ur bday babes oh the crap mines in 3 weeks what the Hell ur talking about his bday in like 6 8 months while mine is like 3 weeks away so I just shut my mouth and bow my head .. even been in car with friend driving out to have breakfast he had a phone call about another friend having a bbq and dropped me off like half a mile from home and said hes gonna go and have a bbq oh ok well thanks then as I am walking back home I have had a enough of friends **** them all I'm happy being alone with my movies music books games I prefer to be alone to much stress with friendship even when its not all one sided still have to "hang out" go parties ect ect can't be assed with any of that what sooo ever

ukmale said:

he's moved back home to save money to move to oz

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So this place REALLY exist??

Just follow the yellow brick road!

I agree, finding a true friend is hard (and sometimes impossible)
Although i do have some amazing online friends of 4 years

I've yet to meet someone who doesn't use me and betray me. I feel like the only person on earth who doesn't do this to others. I've given up on the hope that such a person even exists. Maybe humans just suck and are incapable.

"Maybe humans just suck and are incapable."

I agree with you there. I tried so many times asking people out to go to movies, go bowling, go to zoos, go watch a game, and yet still faced rejections countless times. I have tried to talk to one girl who didn't really talk as much and people were kind of rude towards her(one said she had the worst friends ever), but yet I still got rejected by her, even if I was trying to help or trying to talk to someone the same as me. I literally don't get humans. They are so hard to read and act intend on acting so cluelessly in front of others. It's so pathetic :veryangry: You know there were kids at my school trying to baby me and kept asking why I was so quiet. I can't take these ignorant, filthy lying extroverts! No matter who I come across are always downright bossy or just trying to change me or question why this is who I am. I want to tell these extroverts to go p*ss off somewhere else and see who else they can bother. I'm starting to think this is a whole manipulation game extroverts try to pull on me, I don't want any extrovert bring me out of my shell. It's going to take alot more than that.