AsTimeBurns
Well-known member
Just feel like a bit of a rant since i'm feeling quite down at the moment. Feel free to ignore it.
So I'm 25 now, living at home with my parents still. Never had a girlfriend (never even kissed a girl...hell never even held hands with a girl or spent any time alone with one), don't have any real friends any more. Every day is spent the same way - go to work, come home, sit in my room either on the internet or reading or something, go to sleep, repeat. It's incredibly dull and lonely.
I keep kidding myself that one day it'll turn around, i'll meet someone nice, maybe have a family, but it's becoming increasingly obvious that i'm going to die alone. I'm not exactly the best looking person (i still have issues with my skin - spots, redness, etc... that looks horrible), and of course no self-confidence to go anywhere and try to meet people.
Usually what happens is every few months I feel a renewed sense that maybe I can find someone, so I go back to the dating sites, pay a ridiculous amount for theirt subscription. I'll have a few conversations with people, it'll seem like it's going okay and then they just stop responding all of a sudden. Happened the other day. Was having a nice conversation with a girl, we were getting along fine (she messaged me in the first place, not the other way round), then bam, she closed the match to prevent any further communication. Gets me down, because all I can then think about is - what did i do wrong?
It's a bit of a cycle really. I know there are things I could do to probably make friends, for instance volunteer work, but then I'm too scared to go and actually do it so I just feel worse again. And it;'s not like I never try anything, i';ve been at my job for over a year, I've joined a badminton club, I try to talk to people, but it's just impossible for me to make friends any more. I've made acquaintances, sure, but no-one I would ever hang out with outside of work for example. Whilst I see all my old school friends on facebook in long-term relationships, going abroad on trips, doing all sorts of interesting things.
It's just all very depressing. I'm sure there are other people out there who may be in a similar boat, but I just felt like getting some of it off my chest.
So I'm 25 now, living at home with my parents still. Never had a girlfriend (never even kissed a girl...hell never even held hands with a girl or spent any time alone with one), don't have any real friends any more. Every day is spent the same way - go to work, come home, sit in my room either on the internet or reading or something, go to sleep, repeat. It's incredibly dull and lonely.
I keep kidding myself that one day it'll turn around, i'll meet someone nice, maybe have a family, but it's becoming increasingly obvious that i'm going to die alone. I'm not exactly the best looking person (i still have issues with my skin - spots, redness, etc... that looks horrible), and of course no self-confidence to go anywhere and try to meet people.
Usually what happens is every few months I feel a renewed sense that maybe I can find someone, so I go back to the dating sites, pay a ridiculous amount for theirt subscription. I'll have a few conversations with people, it'll seem like it's going okay and then they just stop responding all of a sudden. Happened the other day. Was having a nice conversation with a girl, we were getting along fine (she messaged me in the first place, not the other way round), then bam, she closed the match to prevent any further communication. Gets me down, because all I can then think about is - what did i do wrong?
It's a bit of a cycle really. I know there are things I could do to probably make friends, for instance volunteer work, but then I'm too scared to go and actually do it so I just feel worse again. And it;'s not like I never try anything, i';ve been at my job for over a year, I've joined a badminton club, I try to talk to people, but it's just impossible for me to make friends any more. I've made acquaintances, sure, but no-one I would ever hang out with outside of work for example. Whilst I see all my old school friends on facebook in long-term relationships, going abroad on trips, doing all sorts of interesting things.
It's just all very depressing. I'm sure there are other people out there who may be in a similar boat, but I just felt like getting some of it off my chest.