Luthien
Well-known member
Sometimes I feel like the only reason I joined this forum was an attempt to feel heard and appreciated. I feel so different, so off from the rest of the world... It's sort of lonely. I have people that I love, but for some reason it's never enough! My self esteem is so wrapped up in what other people think of me, it's really bad. I am trying to change, but it keeps popping up.
I started thinking about it again because I realized that I was getting a bit sad that not many people were responding to my posts, threads or what have you. I posted a bunch of art on one thread and only one person said anything about it, and they didn't say much.
I feel a bit shirked by the community here, but then I tell my self how silly that is. Just because everyone isn't crawling all over each other to tell me how great my work or ideas are doesn't mean they don't care... I've spent most of my life trying to take care and listen to everyone in my life, and that's my problem. I really shouldn't expect anyone to be like I was, it wasn't healthy for me at all. I try to remind myself that there can be so many reasons for people doing what they do and it has very little to do with me. Maybe I just WANT everything to have to do with me. Maybe I want the world to revolve around me... Or maybe I'm just trying to fill the hole where my self-love should be and it's not really working...
I started thinking about it again because I realized that I was getting a bit sad that not many people were responding to my posts, threads or what have you. I posted a bunch of art on one thread and only one person said anything about it, and they didn't say much.
I feel a bit shirked by the community here, but then I tell my self how silly that is. Just because everyone isn't crawling all over each other to tell me how great my work or ideas are doesn't mean they don't care... I've spent most of my life trying to take care and listen to everyone in my life, and that's my problem. I really shouldn't expect anyone to be like I was, it wasn't healthy for me at all. I try to remind myself that there can be so many reasons for people doing what they do and it has very little to do with me. Maybe I just WANT everything to have to do with me. Maybe I want the world to revolve around me... Or maybe I'm just trying to fill the hole where my self-love should be and it's not really working...