cobalt_bluester
Well-known member
Hi. I have this chronic eye movement problem that I've had for a long time now, and I don't know how it came about lets just say it did - an intrusive thought I guess!! Basically, I am conscious of virtually all movements my eyes make and this had made it difficult to process what I am looking at, and it's all become extremely laboured and very stressful! I am not seeing things that was I should be or the way I percieve I should.
I find immense difficulty trying to look someone in the eyes or face because I am conscious my eyes need to be moving left and right and so on, but as I am acutely aware of what my eyes are doing, they will no longer function as a result and this has completely screwed up my head. I have now started to wear dark sunglasses every time I leave the house, in an attempt to side step the issue.
Sadly for me, I now suffer with acute anxiety, depression and social phobia and all as a result of this problem which came about in my early teenage years, when I was watching tv and out of nowhere this rogue thought about what my eyes were 'doing' and how they were gathering information came into my conscious mind. Ever since then the problem has got progressively worse, until now at the age of 39, I am barely able to cope with life. It seems to have ruined everything. I can't make new friends, cant work. I am on disability benefit, and every time I go out I often feel intensely self conscious to the point that I feel everyone is looking at me and thinking what a jerk or a weirdo. They probably aren't, but this is deeply rooted in low self esteem!!
Was wondering if anyone out there could offer me some great advice as to how I could take some steps to overcome this horrendous issue of mine. If I can't overcome it soon I do not see a future ahead of me.
Yours
Richard
I find immense difficulty trying to look someone in the eyes or face because I am conscious my eyes need to be moving left and right and so on, but as I am acutely aware of what my eyes are doing, they will no longer function as a result and this has completely screwed up my head. I have now started to wear dark sunglasses every time I leave the house, in an attempt to side step the issue.
Sadly for me, I now suffer with acute anxiety, depression and social phobia and all as a result of this problem which came about in my early teenage years, when I was watching tv and out of nowhere this rogue thought about what my eyes were 'doing' and how they were gathering information came into my conscious mind. Ever since then the problem has got progressively worse, until now at the age of 39, I am barely able to cope with life. It seems to have ruined everything. I can't make new friends, cant work. I am on disability benefit, and every time I go out I often feel intensely self conscious to the point that I feel everyone is looking at me and thinking what a jerk or a weirdo. They probably aren't, but this is deeply rooted in low self esteem!!
Was wondering if anyone out there could offer me some great advice as to how I could take some steps to overcome this horrendous issue of mine. If I can't overcome it soon I do not see a future ahead of me.
Yours
Richard