bushwick
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In my life I consider myself to be unfortunate, because all the people I know, all friends- I always lose them.. sometimes because of my character, sometimes they don't understand me... I am not a very optimistic guy, but I don't live in utter negativity, but it seems that people don't understand it... Last week I lost my best friend and now I have nothing, the only thing I have left... is the memories of the past... I always end up living in past whenever I lose someone. But I have this feeling that the past is part of my view of life and philosophy, I remember past all the time, i think about it all the time. I remeber very small details (dates, weather conditions, conversations, time) about the past it makes me very happy to think about these details for hours... but I reallize that it is not the right way to live.. I always end up alone... At the same time it makes me sad at the same time it makes me happy and free, because it is one of my greatest wishes to return to the past before some miracle happens... I tend to relive those times before good times happened and think that those bad times were not so bad.. because the miracle was ahead but i didnt know about it then... but now i look back to the past.... and think about whether this miracle has made a human out of me or not... I understood one thing... miracles can spoil and save people at the same time...
I would like to heaar people with similar experiences
I would like to heaar people with similar experiences