nowherewoman
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I can't sleep at night worrying what will happen to me when my mother dies. At my stage of social phobia, you have to have at least one person who enables you to live a certain way and she's mine. I worry about little things like being able to change a tire and make phone calls to just the sheer loneliness of having no one to talk to.
I used to have a job where I didn't need to communicate much and was fairly self-sufficient. Then I got laid off and haven't been able to make it past the interview phase for subsequent job opportunities and it's been seven years. I've just sunk deeper and deeper into depression. I'm pretty much as low as you can get right now and there's no real end in sight.
So anyway, those are my late night thoughts. Believe me, my finding a significant other with my level of phobia is out of the question and I don't have any close family. I don't know how to turn these worries off so I can have some peace. Anyone else like me out there as bad off as I am with an uncertain future? How do you learn to live in the present and quit thinking about how this awful disorder is going to effect the rest of your life? When they told me my problems were just going to get worse with age, they were right.
I used to have a job where I didn't need to communicate much and was fairly self-sufficient. Then I got laid off and haven't been able to make it past the interview phase for subsequent job opportunities and it's been seven years. I've just sunk deeper and deeper into depression. I'm pretty much as low as you can get right now and there's no real end in sight.
So anyway, those are my late night thoughts. Believe me, my finding a significant other with my level of phobia is out of the question and I don't have any close family. I don't know how to turn these worries off so I can have some peace. Anyone else like me out there as bad off as I am with an uncertain future? How do you learn to live in the present and quit thinking about how this awful disorder is going to effect the rest of your life? When they told me my problems were just going to get worse with age, they were right.
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