Tempus35
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So I guess this will turn out semi long, since I have to tell it as an event, sorry.
So here is what happened tonight: I was sitting around for the longest time, when the one friend I have on campus said some other friend he had invited him to the bar to hang out, he asked if I wanted to come.
In the end I went, no clue why, I know how it turns out. But I get ready and we head there. We get there and he finds hid friend, some girl form the major he is in in college. They start talking etc, I sit down. The most I was ever asked was my name. Other then that I sat there. I don't drink, at least not often at all, and I don't dance. Those seemed to be the two things happening. Of course he goes off and dances.
The sad part here is there was a girl at the table that asked my name and then was left with me when he went off dancing, I had the feeling she wanted me to ask her to dance or something, but that wasn't going to happen, just can't do the asking or the dancing. In the end she went up there and left me alone. I decided I should go and left.
I stopped at a subway, right before it was closing, some 20min that is, and got a sandwich, but I felt bad eating there since the guy wanted to leave, so I left with it. There was no where to sit of course, outside, so I went to my car, and sat and ate it. Then came here.
Now what the post is about.
This seems to happen to me often. I go somewhere, a place in which it is suppose to be fun. Yet no matter what, I start thinking it will be different and it always ends with me sitting alone or something, then just leaving when no one is looking.
Why can't I seem to enjoy myself at these things, have fun. Why am I always alone, even though I am surrounded by people?
So here is what happened tonight: I was sitting around for the longest time, when the one friend I have on campus said some other friend he had invited him to the bar to hang out, he asked if I wanted to come.
In the end I went, no clue why, I know how it turns out. But I get ready and we head there. We get there and he finds hid friend, some girl form the major he is in in college. They start talking etc, I sit down. The most I was ever asked was my name. Other then that I sat there. I don't drink, at least not often at all, and I don't dance. Those seemed to be the two things happening. Of course he goes off and dances.
The sad part here is there was a girl at the table that asked my name and then was left with me when he went off dancing, I had the feeling she wanted me to ask her to dance or something, but that wasn't going to happen, just can't do the asking or the dancing. In the end she went up there and left me alone. I decided I should go and left.
I stopped at a subway, right before it was closing, some 20min that is, and got a sandwich, but I felt bad eating there since the guy wanted to leave, so I left with it. There was no where to sit of course, outside, so I went to my car, and sat and ate it. Then came here.
Now what the post is about.
This seems to happen to me often. I go somewhere, a place in which it is suppose to be fun. Yet no matter what, I start thinking it will be different and it always ends with me sitting alone or something, then just leaving when no one is looking.
Why can't I seem to enjoy myself at these things, have fun. Why am I always alone, even though I am surrounded by people?
