when i look in the mirror..

[Falkor]

When i look in the mirror, i see a monster.. literally a monster.
I see the spots on my face, and I disgust myself.
I feel like dying because I cannot feel good, and this is more than only feeling terrible, its a huge frustration what drives me mad , it makes me feel worthless.
I really think i suffer from bdd, because i think my day is ****ed up because of my looks. I feel misunderstood, because my parents think im just complaining about things, they dont take me seriously. they get mad when i tell them about my thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore.. i want to live my life
i locked myself up in the bathroom, and i wish i could stay here forever with my laptop.. because i dont want to be seen.. okay.. i want to .. but not with these feelings of feeling unworthy.. its like a huge pain in my back..

ok.. sorry for this topic.. i just reallly dont know what to do.

oh and btw.. im NOT pretty.. on my pictures i just brighten up the pictures. I llook so fugly believe me

im so afraid, i dont feel happy in my skin.. i feel like washing my face again and again and trying to make up myself and want to look good
i cant do anything to make myself feel good.. i mean. to feel that i look good.. to show myself that i look good..
because everytime i look in the mirror i feel dissapointed.. I wish i looked different

 

[springk]

When i look in the mirror, i see a monster.. literally a monster.
I see the spots on my face, and I disgust myself.
I feel like dying because I cannot feel good, and this is more than only feeling terrible, its a huge frustration what drives me mad , it makes me feel worthless.
I really think i suffer from bdd, because i think my day is ****ed up because of my looks. I feel misunderstood, because my parents think im just complaining about things, they dont take me seriously. they get mad when i tell them about my thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore.. i want to live my life
i locked myself up in the bathroom, and i wish i could stay here forever with my laptop.. because i dont want to be seen.. okay.. i want to .. but not with these feelings of feeling unworthy.. its like a huge pain in my back..

ok.. sorry for this topic.. i just reallly dont know what to do.

oh and btw.. im NOT pretty.. on my pictures i just brighten up the pictures. I llook so fugly believe me

im so afraid, i dont feel happy in my skin.. i feel like washing my face again and again and trying to make up myself and want to look good
i cant do anything to make myself feel good.. i mean. to feel that i look good.. to show myself that i look good..
because everytime i look in the mirror i feel dissapointed.. I wish i looked different

hi flowergirlie,

i know how difficult to have thoughts in your head you don't want. i don't have bdd but i also don't like my looks. but i also know it doesn't matter how i look,all that matters is i know i love myself.

i must tell you your very pretty, i thought this when i first saw your pic.

dont be so hard on yourself. may be you could try to see things differentlyi know its not easy.

i too want to look different but its not possible, so we have to be happy with what we have.
and believe me, your beautiful

 

[Dave1989]

When i look in the mirror, i see a monster.. literally a monster.
I see the spots on my face, and I disgust myself.
I feel like dying because I cannot feel good, and this is more than only feeling terrible, its a huge frustration what drives me mad , it makes me feel worthless.
I really think i suffer from bdd, because i think my day is ****ed up because of my looks. I feel misunderstood, because my parents think im just complaining about things, they dont take me seriously. they get mad when i tell them about my thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore.. i want to live my life
i locked myself up in the bathroom, and i wish i could stay here forever with my laptop.. because i dont want to be seen.. okay.. i want to .. but not with these feelings of feeling unworthy.. its like a huge pain in my back..

ok.. sorry for this topic.. i just reallly dont know what to do.

oh and btw.. im NOT pretty.. on my pictures i just brighten up the pictures. I llook so fugly believe me

im so afraid, i dont feel happy in my skin.. i feel like washing my face again and again and trying to make up myself and want to look good
i cant do anything to make myself feel good.. i mean. to feel that i look good.. to show myself that i look good..
because everytime i look in the mirror i feel dissapointed.. I wish i looked different

first of all you are a very pretty girl and thats the truth, as a fellow bdd sufferer i wouldnt tell you so if it wasnt . bdd has had a massive impact on my life, i hate what i see in the mirror at times to the point where i end up extremely distressed and when its bad nothing i can do aleviates it. its strange because what i see on photos of myself is not what i see in the mirror which is extremely confusing, also noticing people laughing etc makes it even harder to convince myself what i see in the mirror isnt true.

 

[BlackPuma]

Aw, I'm sorry that you feel that way, Flower. :C I know your opinion about yourself will probably lead you to thinking I'm sucking up, but no matter how bright you make your pictures, I'll always think you have a very nice face. I don't look at your skin, I look at shape, eyes and smile. :3

As for your feelings when you look into the mirror, I don't think they're spawned directly from you looks. Because you're not an ugly person (if there's even such thing). They sound like problems that originate deeper inside of you. That cause you to demand impossibly high standards of yourself. Your looks merely trigger it. I think, at least. Isn't there someone who you can talk to about this? So he/she could help you dissect why you feel that way, and possibly help you work on it?

As for you parents, I think they merely get mad at you because they see the same as we do; a beautiful person in looks and personality. Seeing you think way is probably just frustrating for them because they disagree. They just care for you, that's all. ;3

 

[waine]

Stunning. Beautiful. Pretty.

 

[waine]

I wished i lived in holland lol

 

[honeydippedxo]

Aww =( im sorry mama. you are beautiful. pretty eyes, nice nose, full lips, amazing bone structure. its a shame we can all see your beauty and yet you feel so down about your looks. i wish there was something i could say to make you believe how pretty you actually are. but save that brightening of pictures bullcrap for yo mama. making a picture lighter doesnt change your features!

 

[PurpleOne]

When i look in the mirror, i see a monster.. literally a monster.
I see the spots on my face, and I disgust myself.
I feel like dying because I cannot feel good, and this is more than only feeling terrible, its a huge frustration what drives me mad , it makes me feel worthless.
I really think i suffer from bdd, because i think my day is ****ed up because of my looks. I feel misunderstood, because my parents think im just complaining about things, they dont take me seriously. they get mad when i tell them about my thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore.. i want to live my life
i locked myself up in the bathroom, and i wish i could stay here forever with my laptop.. because i dont want to be seen.. okay.. i want to .. but not with these feelings of feeling unworthy.. its like a huge pain in my back..

ok.. sorry for this topic.. i just reallly dont know what to do.

oh and btw.. im NOT pretty.. on my pictures i just brighten up the pictures. I llook so fugly believe me

im so afraid, i dont feel happy in my skin.. i feel like washing my face again and again and trying to make up myself and want to look good
i cant do anything to make myself feel good.. i mean. to feel that i look good.. to show myself that i look good..
because everytime i look in the mirror i feel dissapointed.. I wish i looked different

You are not ugly. I go through that.

 

[Confuseddd]

i feel the same way most of the time? I feel like i am extremely unattractive occasionally, but other times i can feel very attractive. It is weird? like some days i wake up and just "look" better? like my physical characteristics literally feel like they change on me, and i can either look grotesque or fairly handsome. Most of the time i feel like i am grotesque and i cant stand to be in public when i feel like that.

 

[KiaKaha]

I know you probably wont believe me but I have seen a couple of your vids and I think you are pretty easy on the eye. You sing and play the guitar too which makes you instantly awesome on multiple levels..AND you are a nice person too...a very cool package indeed in my opinion. I cant really say anything to make you believe that because I know just how destroying thoughts like that can be and wish I had something more helpful to say, but just remember that a lot of the folks here like you and will accept you just for who you are and that there is no need to hide away.

 

[Anti Matter]

When i look in the mirror, i see a monster.. literally a monster.
I see the spots on my face, and I disgust myself.
I feel like dying because I cannot feel good, and this is more than only feeling terrible, its a huge frustration what drives me mad , it makes me feel worthless.
I really think i suffer from bdd, because i think my day is ****ed up because of my looks. I feel misunderstood, because my parents think im just complaining about things, they dont take me seriously. they get mad when i tell them about my thoughts. I don't know what to do anymore.. i want to live my life
i locked myself up in the bathroom, and i wish i could stay here forever with my laptop.. because i dont want to be seen.. okay.. i want to .. but not with these feelings of feeling unworthy.. its like a huge pain in my back..

ok.. sorry for this topic.. i just reallly dont know what to do.

oh and btw.. im NOT pretty.. on my pictures i just brighten up the pictures. I llook so fugly believe me

im so afraid, i dont feel happy in my skin.. i feel like washing my face again and again and trying to make up myself and want to look good
i cant do anything to make myself feel good.. i mean. to feel that i look good.. to show myself that i look good..
because everytime i look in the mirror i feel dissapointed.. I wish i looked different

There is nothing wrong with you what so ever. I have seen too many ugly women, and you my dear ain't one.