What trigged your SA?
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Nothing I don't think. It's always been. I've blocked most of my memories out from a really long time ago anyways. So if there was anything that particularly triggered anything I don't think I can even remember it. Pretty sure it's just always been though.
its hard to say what triggered it. i really think i had SP my whole life. Except when I was younger it wasnt so severe.
It hit its worst when I changed to a school where I didnt know anyone. And it was a terrible school which I should have never EVER EVER gone to. Up until the 8th grade I was around people I knew. Every new school year I would know at least a few people from the grade before. And then there was the transition from elementary to junior high. and i knew people then too. 7th grade i switched schools again and with this school i was with family, so it was great. So I was never alone till 8th grade. it was scary. it was kinda like i was in prison or something. i was trapped in this horrible place with all these horrible people. I kept to myself so people wouldnt mess with me and so that they wouldnt try to get me to do things i didnt wanna do. like that school screwed me up a lot. it was such a ghetto school. and i didnt get a proper education. then like my last 2 years of school i did independent studies. which i kinda had to beg my mom to let me do cause i really couldnt take another year going to that school on a regular basis.
goddamnit this is way more than i was planning on writing, grrrrr :evil:
so yea, going to that horrible school and being alone for the first time was what made it really bad. then of course the isolation ive had since graduationg. blah blah blah sdlfsjfdshfdshfjkdhsafjdlskgldksagjldkas
It hit its worst when I changed to a school where I didnt know anyone. And it was a terrible school which I should have never EVER EVER gone to. Up until the 8th grade I was around people I knew. Every new school year I would know at least a few people from the grade before. And then there was the transition from elementary to junior high. and i knew people then too. 7th grade i switched schools again and with this school i was with family, so it was great. So I was never alone till 8th grade. it was scary. it was kinda like i was in prison or something. i was trapped in this horrible place with all these horrible people. I kept to myself so people wouldnt mess with me and so that they wouldnt try to get me to do things i didnt wanna do. like that school screwed me up a lot. it was such a ghetto school. and i didnt get a proper education. then like my last 2 years of school i did independent studies. which i kinda had to beg my mom to let me do cause i really couldnt take another year going to that school on a regular basis.
goddamnit this is way more than i was planning on writing, grrrrr :evil:
so yea, going to that horrible school and being alone for the first time was what made it really bad. then of course the isolation ive had since graduationg. blah blah blah sdlfsjfdshfdshfjkdhsafjdlskgldksagjldkas
lettypagb
Well-known member
yeah ,i just remembered yesturday idunno how this boys he used to bully me alot ALOT ALOT ,i dunno how could i forget that ,but if i can forget something like that ,then i can forget about what caused my sa ,that sure isnt just the bully ,cause many person have been bullied by this guy too.
yulee
Member
it is very interesting to know that there are other people that doesn't know when and how their Sa started. So for the first time I feel like i'm not alone, i remember myself being this way since the age of 5 but I don't know what the trigger was and how old i was when i first got it.
and as the same with sleepingbeauty i agree that it wasn't as severe for me as it is now
and as the same with sleepingbeauty i agree that it wasn't as severe for me as it is now
JonnyD
Well-known member
I don't remeber anything particular, i can remember things i've done in kidsgarden and i was totally awkward to a 5 yo kid. I remember being afraid of asking for a icecream the teacher was giving to all the class...
but i was already very shy, the things that happened after that where just function of my extreme shyness.
but i was already very shy, the things that happened after that where just function of my extreme shyness.
Rainbows18
Member
Mine was triggered at school. I hate thinking about it. I was in a textiles class, and there was this girl that i just started to become friends with, and i never felt nervous talking to her once until this day she said something to me (i dont remember what) i responded, and then this girl sitting at the table with us says "DAMN! You're face is RED!!! Oh my god! Its getting even redder!" and then all i could say was "Really?" and then after that i just put my head down for the rest of the class. I was embarrassed because she was loud about it and everyone was looking at me, including the girl that was talking to me. Then i just started to be scared of talking to people because i always thought my face would turn red. So i started avoiding that girl, and then i started avoiding everyone else. I hate that memory! Then to make it worse, that same girl that did that pointed out that my face was red again a couple weeks later!