So this is how it started.
When I was 7 years old my family and I had just moved to the projects. There I meet 3 good friends. My friend who goes by the name Friend1 suggested that we should spend the night at his house every weekend. So we did. Every weekend We would play video games, watch scary movies, play football, prank call random people, and other fun stuff.
This is where things start changing. Friend1 had a sister who I at the time had no interest of befriending but every time I went over she would mess around with me, play jokes on me, and woke me up in the mornings. I would play along too but I just didn't hang out with her much. 2 or 3 years went by and we had become good friends. I started to enjoyed every moment we had.
As time went on my feelings for her became more and more. She became the reason why I would even go to Friend1's house. Friend1 got a job but I would still go over to his house to hang out with his sister. At first I would argue with myself about my feelings for her but as more years went by I started accepting it. I had completely fallen for her.
This is where I !@#$ up. I never asked her out cause being with her was enough and it felt like we where together. Then she got a boyfriend. I got jealous and gave her the silent treatment and just like that it was the end of our friendship. I stopped going over to her house and never heard from her again.
It's been five or six years now and I just can't forget about her. And if I do there's always something that reminds me of her. She is now married and about to have a kid. I know I should forget about her but I can't. I wanna talk to her and see her again but I feel like I'm gonna make things worst. What shall I do how can I move on?
When I was 7 years old my family and I had just moved to the projects. There I meet 3 good friends. My friend who goes by the name Friend1 suggested that we should spend the night at his house every weekend. So we did. Every weekend We would play video games, watch scary movies, play football, prank call random people, and other fun stuff.
This is where things start changing. Friend1 had a sister who I at the time had no interest of befriending but every time I went over she would mess around with me, play jokes on me, and woke me up in the mornings. I would play along too but I just didn't hang out with her much. 2 or 3 years went by and we had become good friends. I started to enjoyed every moment we had.
As time went on my feelings for her became more and more. She became the reason why I would even go to Friend1's house. Friend1 got a job but I would still go over to his house to hang out with his sister. At first I would argue with myself about my feelings for her but as more years went by I started accepting it. I had completely fallen for her.
This is where I !@#$ up. I never asked her out cause being with her was enough and it felt like we where together. Then she got a boyfriend. I got jealous and gave her the silent treatment and just like that it was the end of our friendship. I stopped going over to her house and never heard from her again.
It's been five or six years now and I just can't forget about her. And if I do there's always something that reminds me of her. She is now married and about to have a kid. I know I should forget about her but I can't. I wanna talk to her and see her again but I feel like I'm gonna make things worst. What shall I do how can I move on?