aftermidnight
Well-known member
I'm exactly the same as you in that I find it extremely difficult to explain things to people. This breaks my confidence as well.
I'm constantly worried about having nothing to say/sounding stupid or weird/being a nuisance to others.
I always put myself down and I'm pretty sure I have low self esteem. I get obsessed over having said something in a "wrong" way or having upset someone even if it was a very small thing that probably didn't even make a fleeting impact on them. I fear judgement above all else and that makes me a very paranoid person.
This all makes me a very very quiet person, there are things I want to say, I just don't have the confidence to say it for fear of the things above.
Sometimes I'll think there's nothing for me to say, but I know that it must be my fear and anxiety clouding my thoughts. It makes my brain very unclear and thus unable to articulate a sentence or have a decent conversation with anybody. I hate being this way but at least now I've come to accept it.
What sucks is that, as I can tell from this thread in particular (and from the rest of the forum too), many of us are actually very articulate in our writing.