mikebird
Banned
I feel unemployable after almost exactly TWO YEARS of searching for a full time job with nothing. Only scattered temp work during this period which didn't end well.
I have a BA in Accounting, MS in Finance and progressing toward CPA and feel totally unemployable.
Meanwhile, severe and massive depression & anxiety has taken over my life. I have no motivation to do anything and I always feel pissed off, agitated and angry. I try to act happy & smile at an interview but just told they went with someone stronger
Sorry if I repeat; I'm sure everyone's grabbed onto your initial note
This really strikes a chord for me. There was two years after my first severe epilepsy shock, in 2005, when I was in hospital for a few months, but able to recover. The strangest bit was that I was a part of a brand new startup company about telecomms supply. We did fail. Into administration. Not my fault, and the failure didn't cause the company's failure to trigger my attack. I only knew about it later.
There was a day at work when the amiable accountant visited, and we popped out for lunch at a pub. I was a mess. Hard speaking, and walking. I had a coke - no beer or food. I was scared with migraine which was weird. My first ever proper eppy attack. She helped me but noticed my odd behaviour. I made it home by car. LUCK. I knew something was wrong. I called a friend and got him to call my boss the next day to say I wouldn't be in. After recovery, I found some paperwork about the company's dissolution; I got good money out of it, and I know it wasn't my fault. It was written.
It's affected my employment ever since, but I get lucky bits. I got 2 years solid timeout after that, clutching at straws. Sometimes extremely stressful periods with prospects up&downs, losing, and even winning at interviews, knocks we sideways and back in hospital. Always recovering and back to normal.
I'm now fit, and chasing dreams, but my last work was eleven months ago.
Jobs not ending well is how my life goes, hand-in-hand with girltime which doesn't end well. By doing temp stuff makes perm employers ignore me - that is childish. Temping over so many different markets brings a wealth of experience, which a perm employer can benefit from me. I chase perm roles too. That's brave & not hopeful
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