EscapeArtist
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I can't stand it anymore... I hate being so shy, and I hate being so negative. In my mind I think really positively, but for some reason everything I say is negative... I think because I tell myself people relate more with negative things, and when i'm nervous I spew out negative things about the world because of this! But I'm not that person! I'm sick of being alone, it's reverting me into a sensitive child, always craving the comfort of somebody...
I just don't know what to do anymore...
My best friend of 4 years recently ditched me because I didn't entertain her enough, she has transformed into somebody everybody knows, the 'life of the party' immediately after ditching me. I thought we were completely tight and on the same page and then she ditches on my birthday, it was only us two that were going to hang out that day, and tells me she wants to "give up on our friendship". I didn't even know our friendship took work in the first place! I believe i've lost all trust in anybody who claims to 'love me'.
Anyway she came to the door to pick up her **** that I have and seeing her stare at me like she was a completely different person with only a 'hey' and 'thanks' to say sent me into a lonely panic, because she was the only friend i've ever felt some-what comfortable with (not completely though... still not myself). She was also my only friend. UG
x_x I. so badly want to find another person who will put up with me until I come around, and start acting like my true self (which has never happened before)... I can do this, rarely, with my family but they are gone night and day, and man, I feel so ****ing alone... :
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I just don't know what to do anymore...
My best friend of 4 years recently ditched me because I didn't entertain her enough, she has transformed into somebody everybody knows, the 'life of the party' immediately after ditching me. I thought we were completely tight and on the same page and then she ditches on my birthday, it was only us two that were going to hang out that day, and tells me she wants to "give up on our friendship". I didn't even know our friendship took work in the first place! I believe i've lost all trust in anybody who claims to 'love me'.
Anyway she came to the door to pick up her **** that I have and seeing her stare at me like she was a completely different person with only a 'hey' and 'thanks' to say sent me into a lonely panic, because she was the only friend i've ever felt some-what comfortable with (not completely though... still not myself). She was also my only friend. UG
x_x I. so badly want to find another person who will put up with me until I come around, and start acting like my true self (which has never happened before)... I can do this, rarely, with my family but they are gone night and day, and man, I feel so ****ing alone... :
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