ForeverBlue
Active member
I recently turned 35 8O . Can't believe it. It seemed fine when I was 34 as I was on the other side (away from 40). But now I am getting ever closer to 40 and achieved stuff all.
I have started thinking more and more about my age. Before when I was in my 20's it didn't seem so bad with time passing because I felt like I wasn't that old and there was still time. Now nearing 40, things are becoming harder. As you get older it's harder to find a life partner because most people of that age are settled down with children already. And of course the older I get the less chance I have of having children. I am not sure that I want children but I don't want the decision to be taken away from me due to lack of opportunity.
I left my job of 8 years about 12 months ago and moved overseas with my mother hoping to make a change but ended up returning to my home country as it was too scary and stressful. I obviously took the easy way out as per usual. Now I am back home and I got a job back at my old company but left after a few months as I hated it. I am now unemployed and living off savings from the sale of my house. I have been out of work for about 4 months and am so confused as to what to do. I am avoiding looking for work as I don't want to get stuck in some crap 9-5 job. Plus going for interviews and the fear of meeting new people in a job and having to try and be 'normal' around them is stressing me out. I want something more. I don't go out much except to the shops with my mother and I have hardly been anywhere other than that, just to the movies where I feel safe. I just have no interest in doing anything. I can't make a decision on what I want or where I should be heading. I feel like I am in limbo. I have no direction and feel like such a loser. And I get so jealous about other people who actually have a life.
I can return overseas and try and do something interesting in an interesting place or stay here and do nothing and see nobody. But then that would be stressful also. I have a couple of friends but I only have contact with them usually by email and occasionally meet up for coffee.
Phew...I just had to get that off my chest. Does anyone else feel like this or have any advice as to where to go from here?
I have started thinking more and more about my age. Before when I was in my 20's it didn't seem so bad with time passing because I felt like I wasn't that old and there was still time. Now nearing 40, things are becoming harder. As you get older it's harder to find a life partner because most people of that age are settled down with children already. And of course the older I get the less chance I have of having children. I am not sure that I want children but I don't want the decision to be taken away from me due to lack of opportunity.
I left my job of 8 years about 12 months ago and moved overseas with my mother hoping to make a change but ended up returning to my home country as it was too scary and stressful. I obviously took the easy way out as per usual. Now I am back home and I got a job back at my old company but left after a few months as I hated it. I am now unemployed and living off savings from the sale of my house. I have been out of work for about 4 months and am so confused as to what to do. I am avoiding looking for work as I don't want to get stuck in some crap 9-5 job. Plus going for interviews and the fear of meeting new people in a job and having to try and be 'normal' around them is stressing me out. I want something more. I don't go out much except to the shops with my mother and I have hardly been anywhere other than that, just to the movies where I feel safe. I just have no interest in doing anything. I can't make a decision on what I want or where I should be heading. I feel like I am in limbo. I have no direction and feel like such a loser. And I get so jealous about other people who actually have a life.
I can return overseas and try and do something interesting in an interesting place or stay here and do nothing and see nobody. But then that would be stressful also. I have a couple of friends but I only have contact with them usually by email and occasionally meet up for coffee.
Phew...I just had to get that off my chest. Does anyone else feel like this or have any advice as to where to go from here?
