SickCycleCarousel
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Firstly, I didn't know where else to post this. Sorry if it's in the wrong section...or wrong site...but this is the only forum I belong to. ::
Anyway. Starting when I was 13 I would look at my girl friends and wonder what it would be like to kiss them. I still liked boys, but I was becoming curious about girls, too.
When I was 15 or 16 I accepted the thought that I must be bisexual and I had a "girl-crush" on a celebrity (Julia Stiles) for a long time.
I actually told my siblings that I was bisexual, but a couple days later I told them that I was just confused and I really wasn't. Actually, I just didn't want them to tell my mom as she was very religious at the time and I didn't want her to disown me.
All of my sexual fantasies involve me and another woman. I just can't imagine myself with a man.
I had slept with a couple guys in the past but didn't enjoy it at all. Kissing either of them was like kissing my brother. It was very awkward and I couldn't wait for it to be over.
I belong to Deviant Art and see a lot of pictures of naked men and I've, as of late, become really grossed out by them. I still think they can be cute (like when they do stupid things and hurt themselves especially), but I just don't feel a sexual attraction to them.
I've been imagining myself dating women and kissing them and whatnot and I'm coming to really enjoy the idea. I'm kinda worried that it's a phase and I'm just going to end up attracted to men again. I don't want a man. I'll hang out with them and have fun with them but I will never again sleep with one.
When I say to myself "I'm a lesbian" I get an elated feeling and it makes me smile. But I'm also really confused still because I have never kissed a woman.
In a nutshell, I guess, what I want to know is, do I sound like I might be a lesbian? I know only I can answer that question myself, but I don't know any lesbians/gay people and have no one to talk to (I'm afraid to talk to my family and I have no friends), and I could use some advice from people who know what it's like to be sexually-confused.
Thanks for listening. My eyes are burning out of their sockets now so I must sleep.
Goodnight.
Anyway. Starting when I was 13 I would look at my girl friends and wonder what it would be like to kiss them. I still liked boys, but I was becoming curious about girls, too.
When I was 15 or 16 I accepted the thought that I must be bisexual and I had a "girl-crush" on a celebrity (Julia Stiles) for a long time.
I actually told my siblings that I was bisexual, but a couple days later I told them that I was just confused and I really wasn't. Actually, I just didn't want them to tell my mom as she was very religious at the time and I didn't want her to disown me.
All of my sexual fantasies involve me and another woman. I just can't imagine myself with a man.
I had slept with a couple guys in the past but didn't enjoy it at all. Kissing either of them was like kissing my brother. It was very awkward and I couldn't wait for it to be over.
I belong to Deviant Art and see a lot of pictures of naked men and I've, as of late, become really grossed out by them. I still think they can be cute (like when they do stupid things and hurt themselves especially), but I just don't feel a sexual attraction to them.
I've been imagining myself dating women and kissing them and whatnot and I'm coming to really enjoy the idea. I'm kinda worried that it's a phase and I'm just going to end up attracted to men again. I don't want a man. I'll hang out with them and have fun with them but I will never again sleep with one.
When I say to myself "I'm a lesbian" I get an elated feeling and it makes me smile. But I'm also really confused still because I have never kissed a woman.
In a nutshell, I guess, what I want to know is, do I sound like I might be a lesbian? I know only I can answer that question myself, but I don't know any lesbians/gay people and have no one to talk to (I'm afraid to talk to my family and I have no friends), and I could use some advice from people who know what it's like to be sexually-confused.
Thanks for listening. My eyes are burning out of their sockets now so I must sleep.
Goodnight.