dannyboy65
Well-known member
Well years ago, about 4 I quit doing drugs and abusing alcohol. I was pretty much high all the time or drunk. It was a mess. I was also a smoker and recently I just hit 2 years smoke free on the 1st of December. Over last summer though I picked up drinking again and drank till I was drunk almost every night for 2 months. I began to really crave alcohol when I wasn't drinking. My choice was beer cause in the past I drank way to much hard liquors and it made me awfully sick.
I know it sounds ridiculous wanting drugs and alcohol after so long, but I don't know since I stopped the wants of being high or drunk never went away. Yet I can't do it. I wouldn't be able to be an RCW, I would probably lose a lot of my friends and girlfriend. I think those are the only things keeping me from going back. Yet sometimes in my head I want to throw it all away, although I know I would regret it.
One of the hardest things to avoid right now is cigarettes. I miss smoking and I want to more and more every day. I push myself really hard not to smoke.
I guess what I'm saying is what I want is wrong and comes with negative solutions. Yet in a way I feel I will slip again.
I know it sounds ridiculous wanting drugs and alcohol after so long, but I don't know since I stopped the wants of being high or drunk never went away. Yet I can't do it. I wouldn't be able to be an RCW, I would probably lose a lot of my friends and girlfriend. I think those are the only things keeping me from going back. Yet sometimes in my head I want to throw it all away, although I know I would regret it.
One of the hardest things to avoid right now is cigarettes. I miss smoking and I want to more and more every day. I push myself really hard not to smoke.
I guess what I'm saying is what I want is wrong and comes with negative solutions. Yet in a way I feel I will slip again.