3lefts
Well-known member
I just need to get this out of my system.
I'm having trouble with my identity. When I'm with other people I don't feel like myself. I feel like I leave myself behind and that's why sometimes when I'm around people too long I'll just want to be alone.
This is where I'm confused because, I'm still myself, I can't be anyone else, in my attempts I just become so focused on everyone else.
I get stuck on supposed to be's and supposed to do's. For communications. Sometimes I think myself isn't appropriate.
With so many emotions, I'll do things I don't want to do, become what I don't want to be. And I don't understand why I'll act that way.
I've been concentrating all my efforts on being appropriate. I wonder if this is the reason I feel so lost.
What I feel usually conflicts with what everyone else thinks. I receive uneven feedback. I'm in the middle of so many thoughts. I feel like in my head, I'm not in the same world everyone else is. Being appropriate becomes being realistic, but to me I am realistic, to them I am not.
Or I feel like all I am, are these peculiar attempts to act right.
I'm not worried about ridicule, I've lived with that. I'm worried about causing conflict. Worried about making problems for the people that care about me and causing issues for other people. I'm worried about not being accepted, and being hard to get along with. I'm worried that the person I am, is too difficult to be. I want everyone to be happy.
I guess I'll figure it out.
I'm having trouble with my identity. When I'm with other people I don't feel like myself. I feel like I leave myself behind and that's why sometimes when I'm around people too long I'll just want to be alone.
This is where I'm confused because, I'm still myself, I can't be anyone else, in my attempts I just become so focused on everyone else.
I get stuck on supposed to be's and supposed to do's. For communications. Sometimes I think myself isn't appropriate.
With so many emotions, I'll do things I don't want to do, become what I don't want to be. And I don't understand why I'll act that way.
I've been concentrating all my efforts on being appropriate. I wonder if this is the reason I feel so lost.
What I feel usually conflicts with what everyone else thinks. I receive uneven feedback. I'm in the middle of so many thoughts. I feel like in my head, I'm not in the same world everyone else is. Being appropriate becomes being realistic, but to me I am realistic, to them I am not.
Or I feel like all I am, are these peculiar attempts to act right.
I'm not worried about ridicule, I've lived with that. I'm worried about causing conflict. Worried about making problems for the people that care about me and causing issues for other people. I'm worried about not being accepted, and being hard to get along with. I'm worried that the person I am, is too difficult to be. I want everyone to be happy.
I guess I'll figure it out.