So I took a leap today and joined a gym, felt fed up and down with all my anxiety and how I felt etc and that I needed a boost, and that it was me who had to do it.
I have a weight set bench etc in the house but felt like i wasn't getting what I needed out of it. So it took me while to find a place that isn't a Muscle Mary/lots of people/large corporate gym (esporta etc) and signed up.
Felt really weird today though, but managed to zone out and ignore people (the few that were there) and work on getting fit, then went for a swim, that felt really strange. But I'm really glad I did it.
I usually go swimming in the sea as i surf a lot, away from most people, plus can wear a wet suit
Hopefully it will make me feel better about myself, apart from trying to get buff (not that i am already hehehe). But am going to go as much as possible not push myself too hard. But glad I found a smallish place that never gets too busy.
Anyone else doing the same?
One of the reasons im doing this is that I got discharged from CBT, as my Therapist said i was too complicated and that apart from my social anxiety i have other underlying problems and that I need to be Psychiactrically (how ever it is spelt) evaluated and that I need a brain scan cause of my bike accident a few years ago - mental trauma and all that, however he decided that into the 3rd session, after i waited a year to get to the top of the CBT list grrrr. It peed me off so i thought I need something positive to work towards- as for me my physical effects my mental. As i took up painting again, and playing my bass guitar and sax, but needed something to get out of the house.Anyway I'm rambling now..
I have a weight set bench etc in the house but felt like i wasn't getting what I needed out of it. So it took me while to find a place that isn't a Muscle Mary/lots of people/large corporate gym (esporta etc) and signed up.
Felt really weird today though, but managed to zone out and ignore people (the few that were there) and work on getting fit, then went for a swim, that felt really strange. But I'm really glad I did it.
I usually go swimming in the sea as i surf a lot, away from most people, plus can wear a wet suit
Hopefully it will make me feel better about myself, apart from trying to get buff (not that i am already hehehe). But am going to go as much as possible not push myself too hard. But glad I found a smallish place that never gets too busy.
Anyone else doing the same?
One of the reasons im doing this is that I got discharged from CBT, as my Therapist said i was too complicated and that apart from my social anxiety i have other underlying problems and that I need to be Psychiactrically (how ever it is spelt) evaluated and that I need a brain scan cause of my bike accident a few years ago - mental trauma and all that, however he decided that into the 3rd session, after i waited a year to get to the top of the CBT list grrrr. It peed me off so i thought I need something positive to work towards- as for me my physical effects my mental. As i took up painting again, and playing my bass guitar and sax, but needed something to get out of the house.Anyway I'm rambling now..
