[Poll] Do you ever have violent thoughts?

[Emily_G]

I voted other-specify. I will try to explain...not sure if it will make sense though. I am terrified of hurting those I love...like when my son is born totally flipping and doing something harmful to him

 

[persona]

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[Chiaroscuro]

Mine is a bit different to the options. I tend to have violent thoughts very rarely. But when I do they are quite intense. Not in the sense of severe/ graphic forms of harm - but in the sense of me feeling very strongly like errupting. I have no idea how it would come out because I have never actually been violent. I tend to feel that way when I feel people are being condescending towards me and it gradually escalates. I always stop it as if I have a kind of dampening switch in my head as a safety device. I don't like to think what would happen if it wasn't there though!

 

[redski]

I do, of old bullies that used to give me a hard time.
Like when I am completely frustrated with something I imagine kicking their ass.
One thing that bothers me are that these thoughts can be pretty intense.

 

[0dd1]

Yes all the time.
Usually pretty graphic...

 

[mastercowboy]

What is the normal level of violent thoughts?

 

[dean01]

im not sure if its the same but i have many angry moments, i dont wish any violence on anyone but i have been told that when im angry it seems as if i do.
the only violence i commit is on upon myself in the form of cutting.

master cowboy i dont think there is a healthy level of violence, but there is a healthy way to express it.

 

[outofthisworld]

I never have.. couldn't hurt a fly...

 

[dean01]

I never have.. couldn't hurt a fly...

does poking badgers with spoons count lol

 

[Duzmiu]

i get them quite alot and sometimes i get the urge to hurt random people,like punching some random person walking past me or pushing someone infront of a car when waiting to cross the road, cant stand behind people at roads now or the urge is really intense.
i often think about seeing things happen to people again like someone getting hit by car or seeing someone getting mugged/beaten up and just watching it happen instead of helping them.

nothing ever happens from these thoughts but there annoying

 

[mikebird]

I am delighted to be right in the midrange, with the majority! For now.

It's a very important part of me. I don't lie down or beg. I fight back. I detest society. All the violence is purely in my head. No action yet. I expect it to stay that way. As life progresses, I may fulfil my imagination. Any desire to finish myself off would want to include some others. That's borderline

The closest I've got to real violence has been to escape assertively from hospital, with no harm to others.. just a bit of shouting. I make it to freedom, but back in again. No evil

 

[dean01]

Any desire to finish myself off would want to include some others.

are those others people you dont like or just random people ?

 

[jaim38]

I remember we used to live in an upstairs apartment in a horrid, ghetto-like neighborhood. The neighbors hated us. Several times, when I came back to my apartment alone (my brother was not with me), I see the same guy yelling "F*** you" several times at me. I really wanted to punch that guy, but I just swallowed the bitterness and forced myself to walk up towards my apartment. He also told the other neighbors to yell "F*** you" outside of my window, causing a huge commotion because it was so noisy. Then, the neighbors say, "Is she crying?" and when they think I'm crying, they laugh and say things like "haha, you deserve it."

There was no reason for me to be nice to them because they were horrible to me in the first place. They called me "stupid girl", "good girl", they never liked me. I don't like them too, but I also don't want trouble with them until we move out, so I tried to stay away from them.

Anyways, I'm surprised I was able to survive through all this. I felt really suicidal and at the same time, I felt like I want to bury these bullies, alive. Now, I'm really glad I'm out of that horrible situation.

 

[Duzmiu]

Hi Duzmiu thanks for posting.
Are these thoughts intrusive?

There are ways to address these thoughts in a healthy manner. I don't know if you've ever considered therapy before. But I strongly implore you to make an appoint with a therapist to help bring yourself to a better place. I can certainly understand how these thoughts would be annoying.

haha u know u did bad at school when you had to google what intrusive means

but yea i guess they are.
ive been thinking about going to see a therapist but cant find the motivation to do anything nowdays and my memory is worse than ever, forget things only hours after thinking/doing them.
i did see a therapist type person more of they called themself a consultant something but he was an idiot all he said was "you should tell your mother how you feel, she is the most understanding person you will meet" just because he had good realtionship with his dosent mean i do specially when i told him how bad our realtionship was several times....got on my nerves so stopped going to see him after a couple of months

 

[Duzmiu]

ive never been diagnosed with OCD but i do think i might have it due to certain thoughts i get and the way certain things have to be done or be...as my sister pointed out when it comes to something like making a sandwhich it has to be done my way or i get really uncomfortable and sometimes angry if someone tries to change it or sometimes just wont eat it as its wrong.

im going to make a doctors appointment on monday to see if i can get a new therapist but right now im confused, been taken off benefits because my situation dosent seem that serious to them...apparently depression, anger, self harm and suicidal thoughts is nothing serious to them :/

 

[Lea]

I voted No, never. It is not that I don´t get angry, sometimes I do a lot if someone is rude or abusive towards me, at most I can resort to hitting them out of frustration, but not to the face or any sensitive area, I don´t want to cause anyone harm. I don´t understand when people say they fantasise about harming someone in a bad way, seems twisted to me.

 

[Predacon]

Sometimes, but I think its normal to have the occasional violent thought when something pisses you off.

 

[Oton]

No well maybe for example: if i hear the news someone got killed i want to hurt the person dat did the murder but apart from that no i do actually get sad thoughts all the time though. People die everyday and whenever i am reminded of that i get sad and think to myself ''lifes so random is it even worth living it everyday''? But then i just cheer myself up hehe.

 

[economist]

i act out on my violent thoughts somewhat often