flyawayhome
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i just met an old friend. she's quite close to me in high school.... last time we met was about a month ago at her birthday party. she's not my best friend (i never had one, maybe they scared and tired of me), but we're close... and this morning i happened to met her at the hospital.... i was panic when i saw her, my hands were shaking nervously, my heart's beating soo fast, my mind goes blank, my eyes twitching & weak & tired. i hide all of them of course... but my facial expression can't lie. I WAS LOOKING SO NERVOUS at the time. i didnt know wat to do, or wat to say. i cant be focused on what im doing. i can't even THINK........... ;_________(
it's always been like that. always
i experience this kind of situation almost everyday......
i'm worried no one would ever be friend with me
i was looking very PAINFUL everytime i speak to them........
and it seems like i will never get a boyfriend
cos they're too scared of me....
i can't stand this anymore
when will this ever stop...
i'm so sad.
how will my future be?
can i get married one day
and have children
and be calm, relax, happy just like other people...???
i feel so STUPIDDD & pathetic........
and hopeless........
-AM
;-(
it's always been like that. always
i experience this kind of situation almost everyday......
i'm worried no one would ever be friend with me
i was looking very PAINFUL everytime i speak to them........
and it seems like i will never get a boyfriend
cos they're too scared of me....
i can't stand this anymore
when will this ever stop...
i'm so sad.
how will my future be?
can i get married one day
and have children
and be calm, relax, happy just like other people...???
i feel so STUPIDDD & pathetic........
and hopeless........
-AM
;-(